Dk what to do... its like i wanna have sex with my bf but everytime we do it i feel wierd and anxious and the hocd kicks in and i feel like i dont enjoy it. Can anyone relate? ?

5 years. Damn.

@confused writer Oh no. Poor lass. Hey have you ever been medically diagnosed?

@bosettan Yes. But not treated.

@confused writer Are you taking meds?

@bosettan Nope

@confused writer Ouuu. Ok. Lass, don't worry. It's the brain messing with you. Don't fight the thoughts and don't do compulsions. Sustain it for sometime and after a while the brain would automatically switch off this fight or flight mode. It takes time to build tolerance to this okay? If you're finding it very hard you need to find a psychiatrist soon. Recovery would be a lot easy. This is ocd it's not significant in itself, it's utter blunder okay? It doesn't make sense, it doesn't respond to logic, it Just exists, so just consider that "these thoughts are not yours" okay? They are not yours exactly, and whenever you get a trigger immediately divert to this, think that these are not your thoughts. These thoughts are the flip side of a core value in this case your sexuality. Ok, lass don't worry too much just keep this in mind "these thoughts are not mine and I don't have to take responsibility of them" this is the most important stuff in CBT for OCD. I have been diagnosed multiple times, sometimes I have the same themes and I'm only 19. I'm guessing you're a lot older than me. If I can make it a couple of times you can too. Don't worry. If you want some cbt pointers or stuff just feel free to ask.

@bosettan Thank u very much!!!! For real. Im 23, but I have ocd themes from a very young age.

@confused writer Ouu. Ok. Don't worry oneesan you'll pull through.

@bosettan Thank you❤

@confused writer Just holla at me in this post if you need anything oneesan. Ok? Glad to help.

Idk what i feel Even during...

@confused writer Yeah me too. But I'm trying my best not to overthink it. Do you feel disconnected from your partner rn? Like there's an imaginary wall up or something?

@confused writer ??

@NocturnalGyal Yes. Always. Sometimes I look at him and I feel like a stranger. Its hard. I know i love him. I cried bc of him so many times. But i feel nothing. I feel like i dont. Like im not attracted. So hard. You?

@confused writer Omg yes! I feel like a Stanger to myself and my bf feels like a stranger to me. I hate it! Feeling so numb even though I know I love him and want to only be with him but everything in my head is the opposite of what I want right now. It's also hard for me to be affectionate toward him right now because I don't feel connected at all and I feel guilty about that because he can tell I'm not in the mood for affection. I'll have sex but I don't really want to cuddle after anymore. I feel so cut off from my emotions

@NocturnalGyal YES!!!!!!!!!! OMG. we need to talk. For real ? and now after we had sex last night i have a very fast Heart pulse once in a while. Even what i dont feel anxious my body does.

@NocturnalGyal And another thing... it feels like i want it all and then i get together with him and the stress wakes up and ruins everything.

@confused writer Honestly! I feel so off with him and it scares the shit out of me because it feels like "proof". I also want sex but then in the moment when everything is "inserted" I'm overthinking how do I feel and if I like it or if I'm forcing it or if it feels good and then I ruin everything. It's so hard right now because I really don't want to leave him but I feel like I'm leading him on! If you have instagram hit me up if you want to talk ??@hanuahmary

@NocturnalGyal Oi. Read the comments down below. Don't worry. Don't do impulsive stuff. Don't do anything stupid. You'll regret it later when you're well. Ok?. Issa ocd and ocd is a sham.

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