feeling so numb. I dont feel anything. My mind is telling me i have to break up with my bf, i dont want to.

Thanks :) Anything that im feeling or thinkings is just OcD, its hard to remember that in though times. But thanks! It helps

Can i ask a question? :)

@bjornelena Of course

@pureolife How to deal with ROCD and false attraction? I know deep down that i dont want to leave my bf and that i love him, but my numbness and head says something else.

@bjornelena False attraction to who? Your boyfriend or other people?

And now im crying. OCD is hell

@bjornelena Been there this week. The fact the u cry means you care. ❤

I’m sorry you’re having such a hard time. Maybe just be totally honest with your bf and tell him what’s going on. It might help to get all these things off your chest. Best wishes and God bless.

Sometimes getting a professional's opinion in these scenarios helps me a lot... therapists are generally good at talking through this kind of stuff with you <3 it's going to be okay

Well for one: it’s perfectly normal and okay to be attracted to other people while you’re in a relationship. BUT with ROCD, I think that attraction gets magnified and blown waaaay out of proportion. It only matters so much and feels so strong because of your ROCD. Without it, you’d still find other people attractive, it just wouldn’t be a big deal. Also, because ROCD makes you overattend to your feelings and reactions to your boyfriend, you end up going numb. That also makes that attraction to others by comparison seem scary. Dealing with all of this is hard. Treatment by an OCD Specialist is super helpful. But on your own, it’s just important to remember what’s going on and that your over attention to all of this is what feeds the cycle. When you notice attraction to others or numbness to your bf, allow that to be okay. Because it actually is. It’s just your OCD doing what it does. Rather than feel guilty or scared or upset, can you refocus on giving yourself some compassion? Actually tell yourself, “I’m so sorry you’re feeling this right now. I know it’s really hard to deal with. And I know you’re doing your best to handle it.” You don’t need to leave your bf. Honestly, this theme will only follow you into any other relationship until you learn to accept when you feel numb or attraction for others and can just allow that to be there without needing to know the meaning behind it so you can fruitlessly try to resolve it. There’s no resolution. Just let it be.