Can anyone help?

I feel really afraid that I have a medical issue that's either bad or fatal and I just caught it too late. I have some pretty valid concerns about some issues I've been experiencing with my knee, however I am still anxious about everything. My fear is that I don't know if my issue is actually a concern or not. I've gone to the doctors and tried to treat it, however I felt they either didn't understand the issue or simply dismissed it and so did my family. They told me there isn't an issue but I feel like there is and there's nothing I can do about it. There's a lot more too it than that...I'm just lost.

Keep Going

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 9d

Hi Lola3, thanks for sharing. Its my opinion that the knee is secondary and doesnt matter if your head isn't in the right mode. Id focus on leveling down the anxiety with nature or doing something you love. Ask God/life to heal your anxiety and also your knee. Calm down by focusing yourself this weekend on something specific that you simply enjoy doing. Doing this to level down the energy. Don't look to others to confirm what you already know or feel. Just act in your calm best long term interests. You got this.

Lola3

Date posted: 9d

Hey, I really do understand that and that I should focus on the things that keep me happy but I've had this severe pain issue for multiple years now. I'm worried because the never diagnosed me and they keep giving treatments that don't help it. Living my life doesn't change my very real fear my health is being pushed aside and my experience invalidated by doctors. What if I spent my life living, I never noticed it was already starting to end and I have to live with this guilt I waited too long, didn't advocate for myself and didn't do anything. Now I don't know if It's just my hypochondria and OCD causing anxiety or a real issue that actually needs good worry :( Thank you though since I understand where it came from!!

Keep Going

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 9d

No problem , ill keep you in my prayers

Kendall!😛

Date posted: 9d

I’m kind of in the same boat except with my neck. I’ve been concerned for months about it, and it’s just like a lingering cloud I can’t get rid of. I went to my doctor because I felt like I needed to get rid of the anxiety it was causing me, but he ended up ordering me an MRI. It was clear thank goodness, but I can’t help but still be worried. I try talking to my family about it but they brush it off and tell me I’m being dramatic. I still don’t know what’s causing them and it scares me a lot!

Lola3

Date posted: 8d

I know! It's like even though we are told it's fine...is it really fine? For me I do get I have hypochondria and my anxiety is over something small but I feel like I've just been told that by family or doctors. I can catasrophisze for sure, however I also know that my concerns are very real. For you is it that same feeling of something's wrong but you don't have answers or more youve been told nothing's wrong but still have lingering OCD health anxiety with no issue present? Thanks for responding, sometimes I feel super alone in this but I know I'm not and that we shouldn't push aside our worries because we are told they aren't real concerns!! :)

Kendall!😛

Date posted: 8d

Yeah I’m happy that I can relate to someone because no one around me seems to understand. It honestly is really hard for me to decipher what I’m feeling because I do feel like something isn’t right and the need for answers is driving me crazy, but I also know that it’s probably nothing! I feel like after the MRI came back clear my doctor just didn’t care anymore because he just diagnosed me with migraines even though I really don’t think that’s what’s going on. Im going back to the doctor soon for a check up and will bring a lot of this up to him, so I’m hoping he can help me get something for my anxiety or maybe even get me another scan of some kind. If you ever need to talk about this stuff I would love to reply and hopefully we can both get through our situations soon:)

Lola3

Date posted: 4d

Hey, I'm sorry for the late reply! I'm a bit on and off with this app haha 😂 I so get that! How can we just stay calm and be without answers and not worry about it? Like I'll always be worried about it and I don't get how to accept the whole uncertainty aspect of it. I KNOW OMG!! It's like they do a quick test or treatment and never check in again and never try to actually look deeper. Like they never examine enough or pay attention to the details you give them and dismiss you. I hope everything goes smooth sailing for you!! Honestly I would love to talk to someone, it's just my issues get so intense and I never know how to say it or where to start. I guess for my health issues It's been super persistent since I was like 15. Like I started off with severe neck pain and head pain. I could barely turn my head or neck because I felt so stiff and It hurts so bad. It hurt to walk and to sleep. I had it for a year and then despite it having all the symptoms to be bad, it was just gone. The doctors dismissed me but I was lucky that it went on its own. I already get tired easily and ache and am in pain but before that I had shoulder pain. Last year I had side/waist pain and I couldn't sit properly or turn over in bed. Now my knee which I've had for years and I can barely walk on it, bare weight on it and it's horrible. I feel so scared and it's ruined my life :( Sorry for the rant, I'm just so anxious!

Keep Going

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4d

Not to ask if its uncomfortable but was there any incident or event when the neck and head pain started, even unrelated? I was reading both your messages and my thoughts are 1) doctors will not usually look out for you, they unfortunately are too busy in their practices. Thats a whole other story, right? 2) whatever physical illnesses you may have, trust me , they get waaaay worse if you dont get your mental health together. You guys are too anxious. Ive just gotten through a major depression with debilitating anxiety. I know that you can get through this even when you are positive that you cannot. Make a big part of your life about working on yourself with actual acceptance. As soon as you accept yourself, fully; and shower and dress nice and smile, watch how quickly people notice and show respect to you again. Exercise today and think about what I said. Then get back to me with your thoughts! Let's go.

PRIV8

Date posted: 11w

Afraid of my health/overthinking

I went to internal medicine today, and i'm not perfectly healthy, My liver is a little bit fat, I have to lose weight so thats okay, also I have gallsand, which is not gallstone yet but it can become that if its not treated. Now im like these arent big problems but when i heard these I started to overthink and think about the worse that I will have gallstones cause the doctor said I have it cause it runs in my family(my mother/grandmother and uncle had it) and I just think that it wont go away, and even if i doesn I will be worried all year if it came back. Im just so afraid. Also they said I should go get a blood check, but I said i will hesitate now cause last time i almost fainted and felt horrible the whole day, and now i hear from people i know that they went and they felt sick and vomited there. But the overthinking comes from me thinking if these little symptoms I experienced which I thought its because of anxiety, was because of health issues then the other symptoms I experience sometimes (headache and lightheadedness) are there cause of another health issue, and im worrying about my health, im afraid of death, i keep imagining myself if they tell me that i have terminal illness or something really bad and i dont know how to handle it. Now i feel nausea and i would say its because of stress but i keep thinking that its because of the health issues I have...I don't know how to handle this fear, if you ask others or therapists, they will say "yeah everyone is afraid of death and suffering" or "Try to think about something else" and i wont pay for advices like this...

Health Concern OCD

Chessmixxd

Date posted: 9w

Cause For Concern

I'm going to try and be coherent because I know that sometimes during these moments I tend to babble in fear. I have a mole on the left side of my chest that I've had since I was a kid. Been there for as long as I remember. And I never paid attention to it; it was just a part of my body. I even felt a little sad considering that I might not have it anymore whenever I get top surgery. Yesterday I went down a rabbit hole and landed on Melanoma. Which, of course, prompted me to look at my mole again. And again. And again. It's large, bigger than my other moles. Always has been, at least to my knowledge. I always thought it was cute whenever it crossed my mind. Now...now I'm just scared... I'm not asking for reassurance. None of us on here are medical experts (unless youre an actual doctor) (also insert OCD joke here). I sent a picture to my doctor, and she said that if it hasnt changed size that's a good sign. But she also suggested a follow-up with a dermatologist. And that's what scares me the most. All of this started yesterday, but I sent the message to my doctor this morning. And ever since then...I havent been okay. I can barely eat, and every time I try to I can barely swallow. I've isolated myself in the guest bedroom of my parents house. I cant move. I cant think straight. And...let's just say my thoughts havent been good. Like I said, I'm not asking for reassurance or medical advice. I just...I need help to not feel like I'm dying. I didnt mention that yesterday, in the midst of going down the rabbit hole, I realized how badly I didnt want to be afraid, and yet I also felt like I needed to be afraid. And I realized that that's what ERP is (at least for me in case it's different for everyone). I really did naivietely think that it was just going to be about avoiding compulsions. I didnt realize that accepting uncertainty would feel like a death sentence. And now this has happened. I just...I'm scared. And I dont want to be. I dont want to live in this reality where I'm sick and dying. I dont want to have to tell my family. I dont want to live in that world, but it feels like I'm already in it. My body is just preparing me for it. I dont know. I dont know why I'm even making this post. No one can help me, can they?

Anonymous

Date posted: 6w

Pain

Im getting really bad pain close to my bladder, i went to the doctor and they didnt do much si now im just anxious all the time, its so painfuk and im scared it's something bad. I feel like its just been one health issue after another these past years im so done

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