I’m having a real life ocd spiral

Hi everyone. I’m having a spiral and really need advice. Today I went shopping and saw an actor I have been watching since I was a child. I used to watch this particular show ten years ago and since my ocd got worse I went back and started watching the show again for the last few months. Anyways I saw the actor and got a picture and everything was fine. I’ve come home and my mind is working overtime trying to ruin it. I keep having intrusive thoughts that someone recorded me and I looked bad and now they will embarrass me . Or I walked off awkwardly. Or the actor didn’t want a picture and I disturbed him. Or my clothes looked weird. Please can someone convince me otherwise. I realise I can’t even watch the show tonight as it’s making me panic 😭

bafiire

Date posted: 7d

Ok first take a deep breath. It is okay. You are okay. You need to tell yourself that. I am going to be real with you this actor has probably had dozens of different awkward or weird interactions with people. In the grand scheme of things it is just a small little blimp in your life. Focus on the positive you met an actor you love! thats so cool. Don’t worry about the interaction because I bet you the actor just thought you were an excited fan. Instead of watching the show you like with the actor, try watching a different show u like or like a movie you like to hopefully keep your mind mostly off the interaction! i hope this kinda helped! good luck

iqqqrah

Date posted: 7d

@bafiire Thank you I really appreciate it. It’s not so much him thinking I’m awkward, it other people and being recorded. Like what if someone recorded me and posts it somewhere as there were cameras since people recognised him. At the time I didn’t see any infront of me but I’m thinking about when I walked away. Like I feel like I left so abruptly because I was nervous. It was a Saturday in a really busy shopping centre

bafiire

Date posted: 7d

@iqqqrah ok that makes sense ive been where you are at right now. best thing to do is only to care about what your loves ones think of you. i understand the fear of getting videotaped without knowing. but like you said it was a busy shopping centre so i sincerely doubt that people were so engrossed in their own lives that they barely noticed the interaction. and if they did like use their phone it was probably only to take a pic of the actor and not of you. or maybe they were taking a bit of something else and it just was pointed in your direction. believe me unless you like tripped and fell flat on your face i think all of the focus would be on the actor. and zoomed on him. this is just your anxiety and ocd talking. i know its tough believe me, but i think the best you can do is take a small break from social media and go occupy your mind. until your thoughts mostly clear. i know that is easier said than done and you have probably heard this a hundred different times but anxiety can really ruin your day. sometimes what helps me is saying out loud what the situation was and addressing my concerns. sometimes when i am with someone it helps if i go over with what happened with them to get some peace of mind.

iqqqrah

Date posted: 7d

@bafiire Thank you. I really appreciate this. I defiantly think coming on the app and typing it out really helped. Hope you are well

Theocdguitarist

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2d

That sounds like it was really difficult, I'm sorry you had to go through that! I've been in similar spots before with one of my favorite artists that I met in person. It's important to allow yourself to experience the possibility that maybe you did look silly, or maybe you didn't. Reassurance seeking feels good in the moment, but in the end, it will fuel the OCD spiral and make things worse. You can do this! 😁

iqqqrah

Date posted: 2d

@Theocdguitarist Thank you for this. Really appreciate it ☺️you’re right, and things have calmed down. Hope you are well

Anonymous

Date posted: 22w

I Really Need Some Insight

I am really worried because I felt confident about my appearance today, then I found myself thrown into imagining if I did certain things like flipping my hair or just looking good around a certain coworker and they'd find it attractive. I don't like that coworker at all and I'm in a happy relationship with my boyfriend, this made me feel awful and I starting feeling disloyal again. I don't know if it's an old habit, a desire for external validation, or what. I can't tell if this was a thought pattern connected to my last post or not. All I know is that I'm really stuck right now. I feel like every time I pick myself back up, I fall right back down again, like there's ice in the road. I can't help but feel like everything I touch or everything I think about crumbles. I feel like my own mind is against me and I don't know who to trust anymore. These small OCD spirals are really messing with my work life, s*x life, everything really, and it's getting to me. I feel with every spiral that I'm getting sucked into a depression again and I don't know what's next. It doesn't matter how small the "bad" thing that "i did" was, but I feel that every little thing is building up to a point and something is going to crash down. I need help. What do I do? Right when everything around me seems to be going up, I feel like I'm being dragged down and I can't do this anymore. Please help me.

Justmesadly

Date posted: 12w

Spiraling

Please help I am having the worst spiral I have had in 5 years. I am doing so bad to the point I could not even sleep. I’m so scared, anxious and confused. I did ocd therapy for a long time and my therapist told me I was doing so well I needed to stop. Which I was until about 2-3 weeks ago it started back super bad. And now as of yesterday the intrusive thoughts feel more definitive. They are making me spiral, it literally feels like my brain is jumping from side to side. I love my boyfriend more than I knew was humanly possible. I haven’t lost my attraction to him, not that I know of… I don’t want to break up with him bc i love him, I think he’s hot, I want to marry him but I’m terrified that I am just lying and that the feelings never were true! I don’t know how to make it stop. I tried all night not to research and I had to give in. 😭 this is hell

cait1299

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 9w

Really struggling!

Hi guys! I had really bad harm ocd about 2 years ago and I went through therapy and eventually got really good at handling it when it would pop up. The other day, I was scrolling on TikTok and came across a girl talking about a guy who was presenting a lot of schizophrenic symptoms but no one paid attention and got him help, he was having a lot of delusions, hallucinating, thinking everyone was out to get him, thought he was Jesus and his dad was the president and ended up doing horrific things. The day after that, I was dealing with some work drama and had the thought of “what if all my coworkers are against me and trying to get me fired”. That really stressed me out, cause I don’t normally think about them like that and I went down a rabbit hole of thinking that was the beginning of me developing schizophrenia, ended up googling stuff all night, taking tests, crying and seeking reassurance. I had a thought the other day “your dad is the president”, this one didn’t stress me out as bad as I knew it was just the video I had seen and it was an intrusive thought about it, and I also didn’t believe it. Today I was with some friends and I got a prize at a place we went and it said “lonely” on it. I do have my moments of feeling lonely and this week has been specifically trying so I had a thought like “oh someone’s out to get me cause I got this”. I know this isn’t logical and it wouldn’t make sense to just randomly get it if someone was truly after me and it was just a stupid prize at a random place, anyone could’ve gotten it. Im just struggling a lot with schizophrenic OCD and thinking I’m in the pre stages of it. In my good moments, I don’t think I am at all and it was all just sparked from the video I watched but in my bad moments, these thoughts feel real!! They really stress me out and make me feel like I’m going to lose my mind causing me to lose my job/ end up in a psych hospital/ never live a normal life/ end up alone, never see me my loved ones/ hurt my loved ones. I just want to feel normal and not like I’m about to lose my mind and everything I care about. Please help!!! Anyone else going through something similar and can help me get through this!

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