Harm ocd

I have been having on and off flare ups of harm OCD for almost the past year. What makes it the most hard for me is that its all mental compulsions which makes me doubt that i even have ocd because my compulsions are harder to identify. I get really scares urges/ images that makes me getting this rush of anxiety throughout my whole body. I also have not had an official OCD therapist but with other therapists ive done forms that they have told me I have ocd. But for some reason i fear this isnt an official diagnosis and im making everything up? Anyone else have helpful words or just something to give me hope❤️

s3s3

Date posted: 5d

I feel as a good majority of people with ocd had to have doubted if they had ocd or not and thought they were just making excuses so trust me you are not alone 🙏🙏

Love yourself

Date posted: 5d

I have the same exact thing. It’s called meta ocd. Here’s how it goes for me. if I have ocd, then the frequency of my disturbing thoughts makes sense. It’s a chemical imbalance I can’t control. It’s not me, it’s my ocd. Im “normal” but, if I DONT have ocd, then im just a regular guy who thinks about these things often. I can’t use the diagnosis of ocd as an excuse anymore. So in a way, I NEED ocd to reassure me its just my brain tricking me, and not actually me. so I started repeating things, and I thought, “this is something someone with ocd would do, right?” by doing a common ocd compulsion, I was reassuring myself I was someone with ocd. So I started repeating “I have ocd” over and over. And I couldnt stop, bc someone who actually has ocd can’t just stop, right? so to prove to myself I had it, I kept repeating. And doing tics. you need to tell yourself maybe I have ocd, maybe I dont. Who knows? embrace the uncertainty

AtWitsEnd

Date posted: 5d

Doubting if you have OCD is classic OCD! I know I have it and I’ve been dealing with it for about a year. It’s gotten easier knowing what it is, that’s why the doubting happens. Our brains want (NEED) us to react to feel safe. We get all this anxiety because these thoughts scare us to death and go against our moral fiber and being. The less we give in, the worse it gets because our brains so dearly want us to feel safe. Little by little it gets better, but it’s going to take a while! You got this!

gabriellaek

Date posted: 5d

@AtWitsEnd One thing i do, which i think is a compulsion, is as soon as the ocd starts to bother me I research every ocd page and google symptoms to make sure i have them. And then when I dont have one symptom, I freak out.

AtWitsEnd

Date posted: 5d

@gabriellaek I do the same thing. I have been on every OCD Reddit thread multiple times😂 it’s hard not to, but it’s something we need to resist doing and ground ourselves instead! We got this!!

flowerpetals

Date posted: 21w

frustrating

harm ocd is the bane of my existence. people always tell me that if you have anxiety over a thought, that’s ocd. and these intrusive thoughts cause me IMMENSE anxiety. i’m constantly looking for reasons why i’m not what these thoughts tell me i am. but WHY DOES IT FEEL SO REAL?? it’s like i can’t reassure myself that this isn’t me and i don’t want to do it, but i also look for reasons why it’s not me. my brain is constantly telling me “if you don’t act on this, you’ll never feel free”. WHAT EVEN IS THAT?? and why does it feel real?? anytime i think about getting therapy, i constantly think that it’s not going to help me positively but help me realize i am this person. i just wish someone with harm ocd could get into my brain, understand me, and tell me everything will be okay. i wish someone in recovery could tell me that they’ve been where i am, felt the same feelings, thought the same thoughts, and got through it when they thought they wouldn’t. i feel like i’m drowning in it. another thing is i think about how my mom knows a surface level understanding to this form of my ocd, but if she knew it all, i’m scared she’d never look at me the same. i’m scared she’d be scared of me and think i need psychiatric help. IM TERRIFIED.

Harm OCD

joshuadrennen

Date posted: 20w

struggling with harm OCD

i’m back in a cycle of having harm related OCD thoughts and feelings and urges and i get these episodes where it’s like i’m disassociating and feel like i’m about to snap and go crazy violent. does anyone else experience this? i need help

Summ3r_

Date posted: 17w

bad ocd flare up (specifically harm ocd)

my ocd has severely flared up the past 2 weeks while I’ve been on spring break, probably because I’ve had nothing to do and I’ve been bored and boredom is a big trigger for my ocd/anxiety. I usually go every other week for therapy but the past two weeks I feel so lost and confused on my own and feel like I need to go every week but my therapist is booked and can’t get me in until 2 more weeks. My ocd hasn’t been this bad in years, and it’s been so isolating and I feel so alone at home with my thoughts. Every 2-3 days my obsession changes, first it was health ocd after I got really bad allergies I convinced myself I was dying. After that it was harm ocd and I feared I would hurt myself, then it changed to me fearing harming others and I’ve felt scared to be around others even family. I’ve stayed up sobbing because I’ve felt so bad, so terrible. My therapist told me even though she can’t get me in, that if I really need to come in I should call her office and see if she has anything, but I feel like that would be pointless since she quite literally is booked- I’ve been clinging onto the few things I have from my last 2 therapy sessions but feel like it’s not enough. does anyone have any techniques to deal with specifically harm OCD that I can use for the next two weeks?

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