My first post, help on what kind of ocd I have

With my OCD I don't know what type of OCD I have but I have really bad intrusive thoughts I ruminate on a lot of things I think of and I am very obsessive especially whenever I am very interested in something or whenever I feel like I did something wrong. When I talk to someone and I think what I said was bad I'll have to try to explain myself to tell them why I'm so sorry for what I said, when I drive the windows have to be halfway down and if it's not halfway down I will consistently keep on checking until they're halfway down and the Radio has to be at a even number, everything has to be in a straight line or neat, but it's only specific things. Whenever I think I'm not doing something at my best potential I'll just keep on asking myself am I doing my best job am I doing the best that I can or am I doing something wrong? When I was younger I used to always say in my head that I love God but then on the other side my brain would tell me that I hate God and I would exhaust my self by saying no I love God and fall asleep. Lol I ruminate and obsessed over these thoughts to the point where it goes to the most extreme and it makes everything spiral. I don't know what this is and I got diagnosed with OCD last month and I'm scared now because this whole time I used to always think I was crazy

sophea

Date posted: 15w

Not everyone has a clearcut subtype; I'd go so far to say that most people have a jumbled combination of subtypes. Subtypes mostly have to do with the theme of obsessions, and since all you really said is that you ruminate and have intrusive thoughts (ambiguous), it could be absolutely any theme from my perspective.

Love1another<3

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 15w

Hmm sounds like checking OCD, symmetry OCD, religious scrupulosity OCD (specifically blasphemy OCD), counting OCD (in regards to the radio), perfectionism OCD, etc.

bwebb00

Date posted: 15w

@Love1another<3 Thank you so much that helped a lot! I'm guessing with all of those it's just a combination of OCD types

bwebb00

Date posted: 15w

Thank you maybe I have to be a bit more specific

j vv

Date posted: 15w

@bwebb00 Here’s a helpful article on ruminating: https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/the-rumination-trap Ruminating about mistakes you have made in the past also sounds like a Real Events OCD theme to me: https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/real-events-ocd Of course, I highly recommend using some of the resources I included below while guided by a professional. Hope this helps give you a bit of clarity in the meantime!

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