Hello, everyone. This is my first post.

I used to have this app a long time ago, but deleted it for some reason I couldn't remember. Just tonight, after changing my phone case, I had a breakdown. I remember rubbing my eye while I was scrolling on Facebook, and now my brain believes that the dirt—which came from my eye—are now underneath the case. It may only be a shallow thing for most, but how it itches my brain to give into my compulsion of cleaning it again. It's difficult to explain to people why I would cry over a piece of dirt. Not everyone could or would try enough to understand what OCD really is, unless they're going through it themselves. I drink medications, but I sometimes think it's not doing its magic tricks anymore. I'm just incredibly sad that my symptoms are appearing once again, and I thought I'd share this to all of you who truly understands. If you've read all the way here, thank you. I wish I could hug you all. 🫂🧡

Someonemaybe

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3d

I get twitching type movements when I’m trying to relax because i just can’t get whatever part I’m focused on adjusted just right, making me very uncomfortable and eventually overworking that part. I get so frustrated because i just want to chill out or sleep but i can’t get whatever it is in whatever position it’s craving to be in. I know it’s not the same, but the struggle with it is. You’re not alone, i assure you. Side note, i get incredibly irritable when i have something in my eyes. If i have to go to the doctor to get it out, i warn them I’m going to say rude things, please ignore them. My fists will be balled but i won’t hurt anybody. It’s not a fun experience at all.

Little Miss ...

Date posted: Yesterday

I'm sorry you're going through this. 🥺 I know it can be hard, but it feels less like a torture when we realize we're not alone. Sadly, I gave in to my compulsion and cleaned my phone today. My brain is telling me a different reason why I need to do 'it' again, but I'm trying to resist the urge. I know you can do it, too. We'll be okay. Remember to be kind to yourself. 🩵

Someonemaybe

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: Yesterday

@Little Miss Gath 🎀 Thank you so much, what an encouraging response. I really needed that. Don’t get down on yourself, without failures, how can we recognize our successes? You’ll have many more wins as you progress, no doubt. Thank you again, truly. Have such a wonderful day🥹.

Anonymous

Date posted: 2d

Super grateful to see someone share this here. This is something I've lived with a lot of my life, although it's not usually dirt, but mostly sticky stuff or viscous fluids that get me. I've been doing a lot better after a couple years of this therapy, but at first, I couldn't even cook in my own kitchen for a long time. It was insanely difficult. The second something got on my hands, I'd panic that it would get on everything else. I'd freak out, curl up into a ball, and cry a lot of times. It sucks. It's the worst feeling, and I'm sorry you're there, but I hope that being among people who understand is at least easing things for you a bit.

Little Miss ...

Date posted: Yesterday

Thank you so much for sharing your personal experience. 😭 You're so right. It can be frustrating to battle OCD, but it eases the anxiety when we realize we're not battling this alone. I'm sorry you had to go through that, but I hope you're doing better now. 💪 Sending you warm hugs. 🫂

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