Medical OCD

I never used to really care about my health unless I got sick and just took some meds and went about my day. Last fall I was diagnosed as diabetic. In the winter my car was suddenly diagnosed with cancer and I ended up with extremely bad anxiety and anticipatory grief like I have never felt before. My other cat now is on two medications for health issues. I was in the hospital in march for diverticulitis. I have a pinched nerve from trying to do yoga. A few weeks ago I had a colonoscopy and now I’m having mild tremors and some numbness and tingling in my extremities. My anxiety is through the roof. I went to my primary doctor who thought it was my medications having a bad side effect so she took me off it. The tremors have gotten somewhat better but the numbness has not improved. Okay where am I going with this? Every day I get this gnawing anxiety that makes me feel like I need to go to the hospital but I don’t go for financial reasons and because I’m terrified that they’ll make me stay overnight or I’ll get another bad diagnosis. How do I live like this ? I’ve never dealt with any anxiety or obsession thoughts in my life before this and now it’s a daily struggle. I often find myself crying because I’m freaking myself out. Please help.

Lindamom

Date posted: 15w

I’m constantly reminding myself how far medicine has come. Even if it’s a diagnosis, it doesn’t mean that’s the end. When you go see a doctor, they don’t go to worst case scenario first right? Because it usually isn’t.

astoto

Date posted: 15w

@Lindamom I think I struggle too on if I should just go to the hospital, wait it out, primary dr, or if I’m just having really bad anxiety and quite literally making myself sick. It’s like a never ending cycle.

Lindamom

Date posted: 15w

@astoto I’m on the same boat. Just went to hospital three times in the last month and they keep saying nothing is wrong although I feel pain. I’m beginning to think I’m doing it to myself with all this stress. I know your struggle you’re not alone

astoto

Date posted: 15w

@Lindamom It’s honestly really comforting knowing others are dealing with something similar. It makes me feel like I’m not going crazy. Coming home from work and just crying though when my husband just doesn’t get it, it’s tough.

nishant226158

Date posted: 15w

Bro, what disease do you think you have ?

astoto

Date posted: 15w

@nishant226158 Idk that’s the problem. My brain always go for the worst possible outcome. I think it’s mostly because I have so many random things happening that in my head it doesn’t make sense that they aren’t all related to one another. And then I fall into the “why me” headset because it’s like I can’t catch a break

nishant226158

Date posted: 15w

@astoto If it doesn't make sense, why are you thinking. I think that your mind wants to make a possible logical worst thought. After that, you think of solve. Then, your mind comes to rest. Because this happened with me too.

astoto

Date posted: 15w

@nishant226158 So how have you been able to snap out of it ? Just with the last year I have had when things just constantly go wrong, my brain just keeps going “what’s next” or there’s no way that I won’t get another medical diagnosis that’s not great. Can’t even take my cat to the vet now without having anxiety he’ll have a bad check up.

nishant226158

Date posted: 15w

@astoto I was not able to snap. I got worst ocd than this which you are telling. That's why I forgot this. I think that you need to check up to another doctor for your cat. Not your regular doctor. If doctor said it's right, that's sit. You can imagine good memories other than thinking about it. Like what if I had a daughter, what if I was watching a movie, what if I had wife or girlfriend. You need to watch any movie. I think that if you are dealing with it, you can watch THE AVIATOR MOVIE OF LEONARDO DICAPRIO. I think you can relate with it.

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