Religious ocd

Hi guys! Kind of panicking right now. My mind has gotten so dark and my thoughts have gotten evil and terrifying I’m so scared. And I feel Like I’m at the point where I’m convincing myself they’re real. Like I’m terrified of acting on it or that I’m choosing these thoughts. I’ll tell you guys what thoughts they are. These horrible terrifying awful thoughts of not wanting others saved. Like thoughts like I don’t want others to know Jesus. Especially this one specific thought about this girl. It’s TERRIFYING because this one specific thought that is in my mind all the time is attached to real feelings I have for this guy. And this girl is a Christian and she’s so pretty and I started having thoughts that I don’t want her saved or to know Jesus so that this guy who is a really strong believer that I like won’t like her. PLEASE I NEED TO KNOW THIS ISNT ME YOU GUYS. I just need to know this thought IS NOT ME. And then it gets so bad to where I wake up in the morning and it feels like I’m accepting these thoughts. Like I want these thoughts. Or like I’m choosing them. I’m so deeply terrified I don’t know what to do. I just need to know they’re not me, that my heart is aligned with Gods heart. That I want EVERYONE SAVED

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 2d

Don't worry. Your OCD has latched onto this idea. That's what OCD does. You can EXPECT it to do that. These thoughts are just your OCD. They are not you. But having said that, you need to know that EVEN IF THEY WERE FROM YOU, that it's okay. You are not in danger in any way. OCD wants to tell us we are in DANGER from the thoughts. But if you had thoughts about not wanting someone to be saved, that does not put you in danger. I've had similar thoughts too. We are all human beings and imperfect and always needing grace. The big lie of the OCD is that something catastrophic is going to happen if the thoughts are from you. But if you think about it, what could possibly happen? God covers you with his grace. End of story. What super bad thing is OCD telling you is going to happen if these thoughts are from you?

Laila..

Date posted: 2d

Hi, thank you for responding. These thoughts DO NOT LINE UP with Gods heart. That’s why I’m terrified. I need to know they’re not my thoughts. Because I would never want anyone to not be saved. But these thoughts feel so real. I’m scared I’m not saved anymore

Tea and Honey

Date posted: Yesterday

@Laila.. The OCD is lying to you. Your salvation is not in danger if you have those thoughts. Does the Bible say that you lose your salvation if your thoughts don't align with God's heart? No!! The truth of the gospel is that we human beings will do things against God's heart all the time. But we are covered in grace constantly. Don't let OCD lie to you like that. I dont think those thoughts are from you. I think they are OCD. But I think it's good to know that even if the thoughts were from you, that you are in no danger. :):) Thoughts about this?? What do you think?

MysticAlien

Date posted: 2d

I can’t relate to the thought and I am severely ocd so I don’t have much advice other than you’re not alone and I don’t think that all thoughts we have in our head are actually our thoughts. I believe they can be planted there. Like subliminal brainwashing by others or media. I also know that the therapy videos I’ve seen say if your thoughts are intrusive or they feel foreign like they aren’t yours don’t match your morals personalities wants or desires then they do not represent who you really are and how you really feel they’re just thoughts. The brain is a powerful thing, especially when it goes under trauma and we can’t control what it does. I hope that helps bc reading that here has helped me a lot. Also seeing that others think these thoughts helps too. Because if other people are going through the exact same thing and even have thoughts that are like yours or worse in your opinion than it’s common to the disability and it’s not your fault.

Anonymous

Date posted: 18w

Religious OCD

Hey all. I need help. I am sitting on my bathroom floor freaking out and convinced that all my work towards getting better has gone out the window. I am so scared of the “bad guy” getting me all the time. I constantly feel like I have to prove to God that I don’t mean these awful feelings and thoughts that I have about the bad guy. I’ve had trouble sleeping tonight, going in and out of consciousness, all while dealing with bad thoughts going in and out of my head. Finally I woke up and am flooded with “you have so many thoughts and feeling that you let slide while you were trying to sleep. You had thoughts that you accepted the bad guy and you didn’t dispute them before you tried to move on. You have so much to answer for.” So now I’m sitting here in my bathroom floor hysterically crying and begging God to believe me when I say I don’t any of these thoughts or feelings… please someone help

Anonymous

Date posted: 17w

Religious OCD

Hey everyone, I need help. I woke up just now with the worst thoughts ever. Thoughts that GOD leaving me, thoughts that I like the bad guy, and thoughts that are worse than anything that I have ever thought of before. I realize that I am asking for reassurance, but I am so scared that I mean these thoughts and I just want GOD to keep me and my family safe and know that I don’t mean these thoughts… please help

Anonymous

Date posted: 14w

Religious OCD, ashamed of my thoughts

I am a christian guy who grew up in a christian community and family. For as long as i remember, ive had horrible thoughts about all kinds of things that i dont know where to begin. Due to my extreme thoughts, i feel as if i am unworthy of practicing my religioin, such as praying, reading, meditating, etc. I feel ashamed when i go to church, as if i dont belong there because i feel like i am secretely evil, and that God knows i am evil and i am committing blasphemy by going there, and refusing to "repent", from my thoughts. But then again, my thoughts are just thoughts, sure. So whats the problem? - The problem is that in my faith, i have been taught that we must control our thoughts, so they do not get power over us to make us commit sin. Such as "If you think lustfully about a woman, you have already committed adultery with her in your heart". This verse has killed my self esteem, due to the constant unwanted sexual and disturbing thoughts. It makes me feel like a monster, who secretely just wants to abuse and be horrible to people, even though i know very well i do not want this. Sometimes i think horrible things about the people i love very much, such as my girlfriend. It feels so wrong and evil, even though i know it isnt my true will.

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