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icanbeatthisocddemonicanbeatthis...
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Like today I'm in church and guys I have a sudden though In my head saying I'm already gay and now my brain even when laughing at a youth joke on dating,it tells me ur laughing and ur gay , and I get still and then another voice comes she can laugh even if she's gay....I tell you 😭today even talking to my friend some kind of realization comes and it's like I'm a secretly bi girl in church....and I feel...like crying and I can't
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@Fcukocd Thanks for this ...also my brain is telling me, but you find women attractive ( I know 😭)
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@Fcukocd Ok thanks for that 😊
Tiny TurtleTiny Turtle
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@Anonymous Just about 2 weeks ago, I had the exact same thought and my anxiety skyrocketed. It felt so scarily real and convincing, like it was the truth. What made it worse was the thoughts that came after which were along the lines of, “Yeah, you're in denial. You just keep lying to yourself.” The only thing we can do about this is to keep sitting with the uncertainty. It's so difficult but being in a tug of war with OCD is even worse. No amount compulsions will alleviate any symptoms. It's something we're all learning the hard way. You got this and you're not alone. - from one SO-OCD sufferer to another
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@Tiny Turtle Thanks for this... really sending support from here
Tiny TurtleTiny Turtle
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@Fcukocd I've definitely come across that analogy before and it's a great one. Thank you for mentioning it because it's a great reminder for all of us.
Tiny TurtleTiny Turtle
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@Anonymous Currently struggling with a trigger as we speak but as @Fcukocd said, I'm going to drop the rope by telling myself, “Maybe. Maybe not.”
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@Tiny Turtle I'm going to try the maybe maybe not but I dunno if it's me or sometimes I feel like it's admitting it but I'll try for sure 😊
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@Fcukocd I know it is but sometimes u just loose ur ocd tools and start spiraling and none of those even work... although I think I'm handling my episodes even better 😄
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Me too! I have had it for so Long now, that I am afraid that because I have not seeked help sooner, that I must just admit that I am now a lesbian. It feels so much more real, because you keep getting that response and seeking it because I’m hyper aware. Ugh, it makes you so sad
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@Fcukocd I’m a Girl so😅
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@Fcukocd Don’t apologies! It was not meant like that, it is just, girls get sort of another feeling
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From someone with experience in soocd, you guys probably arent doing the necessary exposure with the pictures, videos, etc that needs to be done to exhaust the anxiety. You get a reaction from a photo or video and then turn it off and perform some type of compulsion to neutralize the anxiety. Trust me, if you go through the necessary protocols, eventually you will see those photos/videos and either not get a sexual reaction or if you do it wont cause anxiety. It may be easier to talk about it on here but you have to go through the erp with a therapist for it to be done correctly.
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Firstly I'm sorry you'll are having a hard time with this ,I didn't experience sexual orientation/hocd as yet but at your core I know what is all about .now the missing piece in ocd therapy is ERP +AU/accepting uncertainty-living in a world where your fear can come true or already happened .AU is the most important part of ocd therapy, ERP therapy is not hard it's accepting uncertainty that is the hard part but when you understand that certainty doesn't exist in this world .no matter how hard you try ocd will never accept any answer you give it cause it's the doubting disorder and the doubting disorder will always make you doubt anything you care about ,that's to get better at managing ocd you have to accept uncertainty. My fear may or maynot come true or happen .very important we can never be or give ocd 100% certainty Our fear won't happen or come true .bottom line it's not your job to figure your sexual orientation/hocd out ,just continue living your life,now if you are doing it with a ERP ocd therapist he or she will guide you through all this
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@Fcukocd What 'no matric certificate' said above is exactly true. Treatment wants you to get to a point where you stop telling yourself "i know im this" or "i know im that." Because continuing to assure yourself of your sexual orientation is part of the problem. Now of course people who know you may say yeah so- in- so is a straight guy or straight woman, but you yourself shouldnt assure yourself of that. Us ocd people keep trying to prove something. Expose yourself regularly to the anxiety producing stimuli and resist behavior to neutralize the anxiety caused by it. And then accept the idea that maybe you liked that. And you keep doing that indefinitely.
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@Fcukocd I think erp is a form of cbt.
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