anyone get paranoid when things are going well that you anticipate something bad?

A lot of people call this “having anxiety because you’re not feeling anxiety” lol. I think people can relate to what you said though

Yes all the time! I find it really helpful to do a positive aspirations meditation. It's often because we feel we don't deserve to be happy or because OCD causes us to catastrophise - to assume the worst will happen. Try to remember that we actually have the power to have a positive life because our happiness often depends on our reaction to a situation. When you feel like something bad might happen, try to think why do I feel like this? What's happening right now that's worrying me? If I believe I don't deserve to be happy, why do I think this? What would you tell a friend that told you they feel this way? Chances are you'd reassure them and tell them they do deserve to be happy. Treat yourself like you would a close friend. You deserve to be happy. You got this x

The best thing my therapist said to me is that life for every single person is two steps forward one step back. That one step back is naturally going to happen. It can’t be prevented, it is simply just life. It’s natural. So when that day comes, it’s no big deal. It happens and you just have to push through it. I used to become severely depressed when that one step back would occur. And when things would get better, I would stay depressed knowing something else was bound to slap me in the face. But that way of thinking was just wrong. Yes, something else will probably make life more difficult, but that is simply life. For some reason this concept really sunk deep with me and completely changed my outlook on any paranoia or depression I had. It wiped it away.

Here's some tips on how to handle Anxiety when things are good: https://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/anxiety-schmanxiety/2016/05/stressed-anxious-when-things-are-good-4-ways-to-handle-it

All the time!!!!!