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Ugh, ruminating and spiraling is THE WORST!! It’s the basis for all of us (with OCD) having problems in our life. Is there anything you can do to break the spiral? Prayers, mantras…or distractions like puzzles or talking to a loved one? Hugs!

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I’m really sorry to hear that. I hope it gets better

I soooo felt this having a shit day as well definitely been awhile lol

Hi you guys! Thanks for everyone responding. So I think I am in the middle of a spiral. About 2 months ago, I got an intrusive thought that I may have done something horrible and minutes later I started ruminating on it to figure out if I did or not, but that just made it all worse. I’ve went from I know it didn’t happen to I know it did multiple times until I have become exhausted. Coincidences started occurring right after which also makes it even worse. Here I am 2 months later and I am still spiraling out of control and can’t even get out the bed. I’ve been through this before but for some reason this time I really think it happened. I should also add that when this particular thought goes away for a few days I am hit with new thoughts in its place everyday until this thought comes back and regains all of my attention. Can someone explain what I may be experiencing so I can understand this better.

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This is definitely False memory OCD. Which causes Intrusive thoughts /imagery and heightens your anxiety. I’ve been battling it since October 2011. Yes it has gotten much better but it does lie dormant for me. It caused you to spiral, ruminate and attempt to figure things out with facts and reassurance. You’re NOT alone. It may not feel normal but my dear it is more common than we think. You are brave and please don’t even forget.

My great grandmother died right with me in my birthday January 2022. I felt so good to be able to care for her until her last days. But I never even had a clue that that day would be her last day. If so, then I would have ran and hid under a rock. I had a phobia with death as a kid. She was 89. Anyways, after she passed, I was crushed but it felt good to care for her. But after weeks of planning her funeral and etc. I began to detach from reality and I started to have anxiety. What if I killed her ? What if I gave her the wrong medication? The EMT’s and my whole family assured me that I did nothing wrong. But I started to have anxiety and I remembered all the pillows on her bed. And I thought to myself weeks later … OMG what if I smothered her with a pillow ? I started to have nightmare about it. Even though she passed peacefully in her sleep. I thought about why would she pass away with me ??? And thought about her dying with me so much. I started to imagine that I killed her. I just knew I did. Even thought everyone assured me. I still couldn’t let go of the intrusive thoughts, images and False Memory OCD.

I have thought I have hit and killed people , while driving so many times. Which have never occurred. I thought I had did things to kids, which have never ever happened either. Kids love me. I tricked myself into thinking I had terminal illnesses and diseases.