fear of going crazy - OCD

I had experienced a few instances where I am about to fall asleep or waking up and I will hear something from a previous conversation no matter how long the time. For example, on time I heard in my head my daughter say mom or another time internally the laugh of my husband's friend, etc. It led me to research which was my biggest mistake because although I read that it could be hypnagogic hallucinations and could stem from anxiety or stress and disrupted sleeping patterns which I currently have all of those, As I continued reading I saw that it can be seen with patients that have schizophrenia as well and my mind went into full panic mode, now I am in crippling fear that I have it or psychosis and am worried I will start to hear things and hallucinate, etc. to the point where I now hear ringing in my ears and it has caused my anxiety to fully spike again. Anyone else experience something similar?

Lemonmind_

Date posted: 20h

Yes, I’ve been having schizophrenia OCD for the past 3 months , first I became hyper aware of floaters in my eyes thinking I was seeing things but once that obsession/fear went away , ofc a new one started and that was the fear of hearing things that aren’t there , so I started to become hyper aware of noises around me to the point where my mind would just make up stuff and that would send me into a spiral doing research , but with ERP at least 60% of it has gone away and I will stick to ERP until it goes away. I went through the same fear 2 weeks ago where I was doing research on hypnagogic hallucinations and it started to mess with my sleep , but it’s a normal thing to experience while falling asleep especially if you have poor sleeping patterns and experience stress and anxiety, I literally had the same thing last night , I was hearing the voice of my mother and this YouTuber I was watching before bed having a conversation but this time i didn’t react to it I accepted it and told myself that it’s normal to have hypnagogic hallucinations especially since my sleep/stress has been bad lately , but if it’s happening throughout the day then that’s a whole different story . Just know you aren’t alone , I’ve been suffering from this type of OCD for a while but I know it’s OCD and not schizophrenia bc whenever I think I “hear” something it’s only when I check if I did and that’s when my thoughts and anxiety make me spiral making me check and check , but when I’m distracted and going about my day I’m completely fine , but make sure checking doesn’t become a compulsion like it did for me , I know it sounds TERRIFYING but next time simply accept it and you’ll fall asleep while your mind does it’s shutting off routine.

1wo

Date posted: 19h

I’ve had this in the past. When I was younger I had gone to inpatient treatment to get help when my ocd first showed up. While I was there, there was another person staying there who had schizophrenia. Somehow throughout my time there with them, I had somehow started to worry about “what if I also become schizophrenic?” And it sparked a new subtype for me. You’re not alone in this and I’ve talked with many other people with similar situations.

alan87

Date posted: 18h

You are not alone. This is a common symptom and fear of OCD. Fear of losing control and going crazy. Maybe going crazy and causing harm to yourself or others. The thoughts feel so real at times as well. But again, this is a symptom of OCD. Thoughts are just thoughts. Try to let thoughts pass by without engaging with them. Imagine you’re standing at a pretty stream with sunshine, trees around, bright blue sky and white clouds. Imagine a leaf softly lands on the water in front of you. Take your thought and place it on that leaf and watch as it gently floats down stream, you don’t follow it, you just watch from where you are as it floats away. The trickle of water is pleasant to hear. Now do that with each thought that comes to your mind. Place it on that leaf and watch it float down stream, floating past rocks and fish, bumping gently against the bank, softly trickling off into the distance. The next thought goes onto a leaf. It slowly floats away with the warm gentle breeze. Peace and love to you brothers and sisters.

sydthefrog

Date posted: 9h

I’ve been obsessing about this and my psychiatrist emphasized that they are different conditions with different mechanisms… that helped a bit. I just had to tell myself that it was another obsession like all the obsessions I’ve had in the past. When I start playing out those scenarios in my mind, I remind myself that it’s an OCD thought.

Anonymous

Date posted: 24w

Ocd/going crazy

Hi about a week ago I found out I have ocd and chronic anxiety! I tried zoloft and it was terrible for me. I also started therapy and I take hydroxyzine but I will discuss further medication with my doctor. My question is I have a huge fear that I'm going crazy, I am crazy, or schizophrenic to the point I'm so hyper aware of my surrounding ill look out the corner of my eye to make sure I'm nit seeing anything ill make sure to double check what I'm hearing and it's so draining! I get really scared and go into a panic and cry 😅 I need some reassurance has anyone felt this way my doctor and therapist explained it to me but I'm still very scared. I feel like one day I'll have a break and I won't be the same! I tried the grounding exercise and breathing it helps temporarily. I also cut out smoking weed and none of my family has this but I feel like I have it or ill develope it even though it's rare!

Anonymous

Date posted: 15w

Is schizo ocd a thing?

I have been having these fears about developing schizophrenia, it reached a point where i am starting to almost hear things or the smallest sounds and my mind tells me you're schizophrenic, and i feel this weird sensations in my ear as if someone is whispering yet i can barely hear them, the thing is i am not diagnosed yet because i never work with an OCD therapist but i study psychology so i just used what i learnt to give a meaning to my suffering, many themes of this fear have been happening before and this schizophrenia fear is the last one. I want to know what advice you can give me or ways to make my brain calm down a little bit, i also don't have and can't afford a therapist that's why i am here in the first place I also want to know more informations or experiences with this theme if anyone habe experienced it and what helped you with it I remember feeling better for a while but than i collapsed back, but i am hoping to get better soon too or anytime in the future, I don't want reassurance so make sure you be as real as you can, and thanks 🙏🏻

cait1299

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 11w

Really struggling!

Hi guys! I had really bad harm ocd about 2 years ago and I went through therapy and eventually got really good at handling it when it would pop up. The other day, I was scrolling on TikTok and came across a girl talking about a guy who was presenting a lot of schizophrenic symptoms but no one paid attention and got him help, he was having a lot of delusions, hallucinating, thinking everyone was out to get him, thought he was Jesus and his dad was the president and ended up doing horrific things. The day after that, I was dealing with some work drama and had the thought of “what if all my coworkers are against me and trying to get me fired”. That really stressed me out, cause I don’t normally think about them like that and I went down a rabbit hole of thinking that was the beginning of me developing schizophrenia, ended up googling stuff all night, taking tests, crying and seeking reassurance. I had a thought the other day “your dad is the president”, this one didn’t stress me out as bad as I knew it was just the video I had seen and it was an intrusive thought about it, and I also didn’t believe it. Today I was with some friends and I got a prize at a place we went and it said “lonely” on it. I do have my moments of feeling lonely and this week has been specifically trying so I had a thought like “oh someone’s out to get me cause I got this”. I know this isn’t logical and it wouldn’t make sense to just randomly get it if someone was truly after me and it was just a stupid prize at a random place, anyone could’ve gotten it. Im just struggling a lot with schizophrenic OCD and thinking I’m in the pre stages of it. In my good moments, I don’t think I am at all and it was all just sparked from the video I watched but in my bad moments, these thoughts feel real!! They really stress me out and make me feel like I’m going to lose my mind causing me to lose my job/ end up in a psych hospital/ never live a normal life/ end up alone, never see me my loved ones/ hurt my loved ones. I just want to feel normal and not like I’m about to lose my mind and everything I care about. Please help!!! Anyone else going through something similar and can help me get through this!

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