I don't know what to do .I don't know if my therapist knows about intrusive thoughts..I want to tell them and see what she says.I told her some of my worries..but not all.At this point it feels like I am in denial.I had a staring compulsion and made a parent upset and I want to apologise but Idk how And I pray I didn't upset the kid.And I think about a terrible thing when I fantasize..like the thoughts appear and I am so so scared.I hate them.
Is it a NOCD therapist if it is they will understand
@@sophiaevidal I second this
They are not
@Mitu_001 Oh well I understand and can relate. I have stared at times at kids private areas unintentionally but I freeze whenever I do (my eyes just wander).
@@sophiaevidal Oh I understand.Well at me it was intentional and I am very ashamed and I am very sorry.
@Mitu_001 Well you say it is a compulsion so it you are probably testing your feelings which I done testing compulsion so I understand
@@sophiaevidal I hope it was.And I am not just a terrible human
@@sophiaevidal i thought this was just me i felt disgusting for so long like omg that’s not me
these type of thoughts come back to trauma talk to your therapist love
I told her a bit and she said it was guilt.And also I told her about a situation I went through.That was not ok for a kid
@Mitu_001 And they told me is all connected but I don't understand exactly
@Mitu_001 Well it is okay you are not harming anyone so you are okay. Forgive yourself.
@Mitu_001 when you were younger did you see anything that was REALLY HARSH or just like traumatizing?? when bad things happen like that when your younger or in general your mind becomes more prone to those things and you morally may think something’s wrong, but you need to remember that your brain does not see anything wrong. thats called unresolved trauma. try to get in touch with your brain and dig to the bottom of the intrusive thoughts even though most are probably random
@Nothealthy Well some strangers asked me inappropriate things on the internet.I don't think is that bad...but I think my therapist helped me realise
@@sophiaevidal I am trying.I feel like I hurt bcs of staring and not helping the kid.
@Mitu_001 You are not physically harming them. But I am going to stop reassurance you because that does not help.
@@sophiaevidal You are right.Thank you
My advice to broach this subject with a therapist and your scared. Ask them if they’re familiar with intrusive thoughts and how they pertain ocd and if they know that these thoughts are ego-dystonic
Is the therapist specialized in OCD?
No
@YouWillSurvive It REALLY helps to have a therapist specialized in OCD. You can tell them anything and they’ll just say “that’s your OCD”.
If you’re *^^
I need advice for intrusive thoughts. I used to feel like I could handle them. They weren’t nearly as bad as the things that related to my actual life. But now, I’m suffering. I haven’t had a sexual experience in over a year that didn’t involve constant intrusive thoughts. Most are somehow related to kids and I keep chasing off the thoughts but it’s so bad. I know you’re supposed to ignore them but I don’t know how I can just ignore that and continue what I’m doing. But they’re coming on stronger. I had one earlier I could not get rid of just as things finished so the thought came on strongly just before my orgasm hit and now I feel absolutely disgusting. I hated the thought and I know it’s not me and it was not enjoyable but it still feels like I was getting off to it. I feel sick. I’m so fucking tired of these thoughts. They’re in my every day life too and it’s all the time. I just want it to stop but ignoring it feels so wrong. What should I do?
Can someone talk with me? I know I posted a lot about this and I want to stop.I know only a therapist will tell me what to do..But please..can someone give me some advice? I am scared I did something horrible.I didnt help a kid 3 years ago.I feel like I left them in danger.I am so sorry.The worst is I didnt helped in all these years.I want to tell the kid I am sorry but I dont want to make them remember.I got terrible thoughts and I still have them and I feel like I betrayed them and still betray them.Bcs I didnt help and bcs of the thoughts.I dont know but I think about what happened.and how terrible it was..especially because they told me and I didnt help.I dont know why I think that but I feel like a monster.I met with them today and with their parents (which I feel like I betrayed them too) and I talked with them.but i was very anxious and I am scared their parents judge me .I want to help now..but idk how.Is it too late? I am scared I want to help just because I feel guilty.I want to live in the present and do something now but my mind makes me think of the past..Any advice? Thank you
I am so scared of everything .Of my thoughts.If I am a good person.Years ago I didnt help a kid who was in danger.Since then I started to have terrible thoughts :( i am so terrified.I still have these thoughts and I am scared it means something about me .I really dont want to hurt anyone and I want to help that kid now but idk how I can now.Also I am scared I betray everyone.I still have terrible thoughts and when I am with someone I care is worse...idk why.For example I started to talk with a collegue and he is really nice to me.I told him some things abt me( not the intrusive thoughts) and he was supportive.I have no idea if I will tell anyone abt my thoughts..and bcs of that I feel like I lie to them and betray them.I really want to enjoy my life and be happy and support people( especially because I didnt help that kid then).I want to live up to my morals now but I feel like I lie and manipulate people bcs I am a monster.Is this normal? To feel this way? What can I do? What if I am my worst fear and just cant accept it?!
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