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Please Help
I am 18 years old and I have really bad OCD and anxiety I think and I used to type all of my thoughts in the notes app and I recently deleted them because I felt like God wanted me to but now I regret it because I know thereās things in my notes That I might have acted on and I didnāt get the chance to tell my mom and now I donāt remember them and I cry and I cry because I donāt wanna be a bad person, but I do sometimes do my thoughts not like actually hurt someone, but for instance, I was touching my monitor. Weird whenever I didnāt have to, and I kept touching it after I had an intrusive thought and I shouldāve stopped, but I didnāt and if I did that, what else have I done and I just wanna get back to my normal life and I canāt even do normal tasks all the time and I know the thoughts that Iāve acted on was not the check to see if anything happened. What if I did it for bad reasons what does that make me now? I just wanna grow up and be a Christian and just have a family and then I will be happy. I donāt want these thoughts anymore, but Iām so scared of my past please help