erp of pure ocd

Why is it actually so hard to not do compulsions ive literally not done it for a few hours but then I kept having more and more intrusive thoughts feelings sensations all that stuff that just make it so real where you start feeling like do I like this and why are the thoughts so specific and you can’t stop ur mind from doing what it’s doing, so I gave into compulsions I’m mad at myself I was doing so well but I’m just so scared of what these thoughts/sensations mean about me because when it actually feels like real like yeah that feeling feels like the truth about how I feel about this thought or this thought must be something I actually like,HOW ON EARTH AM I NOT GONNA WANAN DO A COMPULSION AND THEN WHEN I START I CANT STOP MY MIND IS RACING TRYAN DO ALL THE COMPULSIONS. Then my brain slows down and I’m like hey but u still haven’t figured out this part of the thought that could be real,by this time I don’t even really remember. I’m trying my best I really really am what am I doing wrong I need help Also my therapist has been away she’s back this week

Anonymous

Date posted: 9h

I just want to say I relate to how you feel. I don't know the answer but thanks for making me feel like I'm not alone.

ocdisnotaslay

Date posted: 6h

@Anonymous Thanks for message I’m not glad ur going through it but I’m glad I’m not alone also ❤️

Lemonmind_

Date posted: 9h

I’ve been doing ERP for a month and a half now for my “pure” OCD and the first month was me exposing myself to my fears/triggers and that was super hard since I had to admit that I might be all these intrusive thoughts and I would also willingly expose myself to those fears and sit with the anxiety and spirals and do nothing about it but i wouldn’t always succeed and would end up compulsively checking and checking but I started to realize how much longer I could go without checking I also started to notice how less anxious I would get when triggered and that is HUGE even if you still do spiral , these things take time after all we are re wiring the brain and that takes time , im also not so much of a patient person so ERP has been teaching me how to work with myself in a more calm and patient way , but just know what you’re experiencing is part of the process with ERP , the most important part about ERP is the way you react to those thoughts the reality is we can’t ever stop our thoughts but we most definitely can learn how to react to them especially those thoughts that do us harm and make us spiral. Try not to react to them as much just tell yourself “maybe maybe not” then distract yourself , again re wiring the brain takes time so try not to be so hard on yourself and accept that some days you will give into those compulsions/spirals and when those days do come remind yourself of what’s going on and try to react to that spiral in a carless manner then simply go on about your day , I know it’s hard (I myself still struggle with this) but eventually your brain will start to learn that you don’t really care much and that will help you drop those intrusive thoughts much easier to the point where they just become any other thought .

ocdisnotaslay

Date posted: 6h

@Lemonmind_ Thank you I think this is why I’ve felt like ocd is so different from other conditions because the compulsions feel like there’s something to be scared of … like a real threat. I agree with u on the u feel less anxious when u don’t do it and like holding off doing compulsions,but sometimes when u still wanna do a compulsion within an intrusive thought present that gets u back in the cycle but idk id think its not much of a big deal but it is, ive been doing this for a whole year ive deffo got so much rewiring to do !! But thanks for ur message it was helpful,i hope that you will recover from this awful mental illness

Catlove9

Date posted: 24w

I need guidance or to feel like I am not alone

I was doing so much better with my OCD. I thought I finally figured it out. However, the last two weeks have been a nightmare. It’s like I went from 0-100 all over again. And it’s become scarier than it ever has been. Every other thought is either causing me anxiety or turning into an intrusive thought. Any headache or feeling of derealization, and I start to spiral. My thoughts are becoming more gruesome and feeling more real. The intrusive urges are so bad it feels like at any moment I could actually just snap. It feels like I am about to go crazy. Another hard aspect is when I’m getting these intrusive urges it feels like I want to do it or I don’t care if I do it. I don’t feel like myself. I feel like this disgusting monster who is just going to lose it and I want it to be over. Why is this happening when I was finally better? It makes me feel like it’s not OCD and I’m actually this person and I’m just holding my true self back. I’m sick to my stomach.

Wed_Wheel

Date posted: 23w

My SO OCD

I have just recently realized that I had SO OCD. This began whenever I was watching porn and had an intrusive thought about the guy in the porn. It was more minor at first, it was a majority of what I was thinking about throughout the day but it didn’t feel as distressing at first. If I had downtime to think about it, it would affect me but if I was just going about my day I wouldn’t notice it. I began going through the compulsions of checking myself. This lasted for a while until another obsession occurred. Then it seemed as if my SO OCD took a step back. I would have flare ups but they would seem to pass. Recently, I had a very bad night of constant compulsions and looking at pictures and imagining things to check myself. After that night it was very distressing, it affected me to the point where people around me began to notice and ask me if I was okay. One of the big reasons I was so upset was my girlfriend, we have been together for over 3 years and I want to spend the rest of my life with her. I was thinking “Oh my god, if I am gay I can never be with her.” I would sit and cry about it thinking I would lose her and that might life would change because I was gay. I finally had enough and talked to her and my parents. We did some research and I was so shocked to find out that I had a form of OCD, it was like a weight being lifted off my shoulders just knowing that other people have been where I am and that I’m not gay. However, I may have naively expected the compulsions and obsessive thoughts to go away now that I knew I had an actual problem. But I found that the compulsions and thoughts were still there and I was going to put some effort into getting better. I have researched and now know what to do when experiencing intrusive thoughts, yet I still have been performing the compulsions which is just feeding into the OCD. I find myself having intrusive thoughts and then start performing compulsions to see if they are true. What really bothers me is when I have an intrusive thought that tells me that I do like something. But when I think about it I have no desire to pursue those thoughts. However when I feed into the compulsions they just seem to feed into each other. It is like my OCD ignores all the things that I know I like and goes straight to panic mode. I am also trying to do ERP and am going to start doing my best to get better. Does anyone have any tips for not performing the compulsions no matter how anxious you are feeling and no matter how real the intrusive thoughts seem to feel?

Sexual Orientation OCD

Anonymous

Date posted: 13w

religious OCD

Please help. I have felt so off/wrong all day. I constantly worry that the “bad guy” is going to get me. I have awful thoughts and I constantly want God to know that I don’t mean these thoughts. I am at a point in my therapy where I need to choose to use my ERP but it feels too scary. I then do compulsions, which makes the OCD worse, which makes me want to use ERP less. And the cycle goes on. I am currently sitting in my car crying because I feel so lost and exhausted. I’m not supposed to figure out my thoughts, but today I just went into a spiral of sadness and depression, thinking that I will always feel like this. When my thoughts got really bad at the end of the day, I tried to use ERP even though I was shaking and not believing my responses and I ended up feeling like I missed something and that I gave into the “bad guy.” I have no one to talk when I’m not doing therapy twice a week. I am alone and have no one to talk to when I am like this… please help

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