Hocd

I think i am getting better and i try to ignore my undiagnosed hocd but sometimes is really hard,the weird dreams,and sometimes idk if someone has this my mind is talking for myself like “i am bi” and i get really scared or completing things and is horrible and i have a compulsion and a fear for the feauture like what if i like girls and i dont want to let me or something else and i get really scared and i just know i am not bi i get scared when i am next to girls and anxiety and i want to be me again without hocd(i always had ocd but hocd is hell ) The hocd simptoms came like 3 months ago i started asking myself if i liked my friend just because we were understanding eachother better,then i saw i girl after a few days and i like how lashes suited her then my mind was telling me that i like her then a fear started,i vomited felt scared(i didnt know about hocd) and started feeling depressed,having intrusive thoughts all day,compulsions, dreams and then i found out abt hocd i felt better because i knew ways to feel better,TIPS if someone has this find a hobby to clear your mind,pray,meditate,and talk to someone But i just cant accept the uncertinty i just dont find normal sorry

Ms.shelovesf...

Date posted: 14w

I’ve had this theme for a year now and you can get better by sitting with whatever ocd throws at you and it’s hard to sit with uncertainty about your sexuality but when you have ocd, you have to get comfortable with accepting the worst case scenario. It won’t happen most likely but it tells your brain to stop treating the topic as a threat. Allow the thoughts , emotions, urges and sensations to pass.. it’s a brain glitch that you have to learn not to itch

sofiaaaaa

Date posted: 14w

@Ms.shelovesfrogs I just cant accept uncertinty and that most likely it wont happen,just no that scares me because i know who i am

juliarod62

Date posted: 14w

I remember my therapist telling myself imagine u have an orange in front of you and imagine peeling it and after peeling imagine eating it. And after saying did you do it in real life.? And that’s what we have to tell our thoughts that. I know some days it’ll be easier then other but we gotta know it’s not facts it’s just thoughts

sofiaaaaa

Date posted: 14w

@juliarod62 Yea i understand that thanks but it just feels real like i do not want to believe that s normal sorry i cant and i dont know what to do else

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