Is OCD therapy the right next step? Here’s how to tell

My ocd gets really stuck on the fact that I don’t have a high school friend group as an adult (who has great friends now). I can’t accept that friends come and go and it’s normal to lose touch. I feel like I’m the only one that has “lost” or lost touch with friends and doesn’t have a close group. I also look at high-school as not w place where I didn’t trust many people? Didn’t find my people is that normal?

Hi all i sometimes wonder wheather it is my thoughts or ocd thoughts? How to find ocd thoughts and my thoughts?

I have placed myself in and out of therapy most of my adult life because I knew I was struggling with "something" and I was mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually exhausted in my everyday battles. My silent fights alone. I was always able to help others work through their hard times in life. I learned that tutoring others in college also helped me as well. So I would always listen to people problems and try to help, I thought it would or could help me too. But it did not, not really. I do get a sense of reward from help people, I do enjoy being a resource. But I could not figure out me? And I was not able to explain to my family or friends what was wrong. All they seen was I was living, had material things and a fun and funny person to be around. Every9ne always said I was a good listener and people gravitated to me for help naturally. I thought it was my purpose to try and help. In the meantime, I was draining in my own battles. I found no one who could relate. Or maybe I just did not understand myself or OCD well enough to explain what was going on for others to understand how to support. But I am pretty sure and confident in the reality that my family just did not want to see or understand. Because it would be a self-reflectuon that they avoid with all cost. They are too perfect to admit to a flaw... way too perfect. And the always tried to make me feel like I was toxic or trying the shame the family. But I love my family and all its dysfunction. I was screaming out for help and all they send was she is going to embarrass us all. Because they hide TRUTHS. They hate that their grown children comes to me for advice and understand. They hate when their children ask how we were growing up. I tell the truth. Not in a hurtful way, I explain what was missed and what we did not have the understanding or the skill to do. I also said they had to be the generation to change it or thier own children would be effected. They would go back to talk to they parents and my siblings would deny deny deny. I realize that they weren't ready to admit the truth, the reality I recently said the word that my entire family will not allow to fall from thier mouths. I explained how disappointed I was in my family for shaming two of my struggling brothers and I said, it's a shame that my own family stereotypes and judge those with MENTAL HELATH STUGGLES setting these high ass expectations and offering NO HELP OR SUPPORT THROUGH! I said it in a family group text, and all I got was fucking crickets! At first I made an excuse for them. I said to myself their ass just stupid, they don't want to learn or understand... Then I said, No they are hiding, like they do with everything else. And that is why we are all so distant. I even said, "It's absolutely crazy that any strange person can walk up to you and tell you anything, anyth8ng at all about one of your family members and you'll believe it. Without even checking in with that person all to get the facts. It's crazy to me, their own children even? No one could walk up to me and tell me anything about my family that I could not recognize as true or impossible. And even if I was uncertain, I'd definitely to a drive by and have a direct face to face conversation. What kind of selfish crazy os that not to? I didn't care how long we haven't seen or spoken to one another, I am coming and you better opened the door.