Anyone up and able to chat? Im struggling so much right now.

lulu23

Date posted: 5y ago

Thank you so much. Don’t apologize. Were in this together. I wish you the best. Did you stop cold turkey? I find that i feel better once im awake a while but my mind will still think to itself that just because i feel good doesnt mean i am good.

Andrew Smith

Date posted: 5y ago

Yes, I stopped cold turkey but I had only had the medication for five days. The psychiatrist advised me to stop once it wasn’t doing good. I’m feeling so stupid for having taking them. Like, I keep doubting that it was due to taking the medication that I stayed like this. Like, I know the intrusive thoughts are mine and the medication didn’t create them. But the medication made me feel worse about them and led me to a very depressive episode. And now I’m feeling bad for having been in this state, especially because OCD is so misunderstood and I can’t open up to the people who care about me about this. But I’m trying to go back to normal e I know it takes time. And now I decided treating OCD only in therapy, without medication. And if I try medication again, it’s gonna be only in a while. And about what you said about feeling good, this is so awful. For me it’s like, I CAN’T feel good, I’m not allowed. It’s awful. But deep inside we KNOW we can, we just have to work our minds towards it. We are very good people and we deserve the best.

Andrew Smith

Date posted: 5y ago

I’m here for you!

lulu23

Date posted: 5y ago

Thank you im doubg a bit better but still very anxious. Im not sure if the medication im on for a couple weeks that is making me feel this way but its scary. I wake up with my ears ringing and really anxious it feels like ive been tuminating in my sleep but i dont know. Then i cant go back to sleep because the anxiety increases my intrusive thoughts. I just want to know theyre just thoughts you know. I hate them so much.

Andrew Smith

Date posted: 5y ago

I have been through something similar this week! I started taking a medication last week and it did NOT do me well at all (I have stopped). :( It seems like the thoughts became worse, to a point where I had only them in my head, and they made me very anxious, and one led to another and then I was drowning in horrible thoughts and they also didn’t let me sleep. I stayed three days extremely DEPRESSED in bed, it was like a nightmare. There was a point when there was nothing in my head and I forgot the meaning of things. :( I’m getting better little by little, but I am still bad and depressed because of all of that. It feels like my life is out of control. :( I’m sorry, I ended up making it about me, cause I need help as well, but just know that you are not alone. There are others like you and the thoughts are only thoughts. You are safe. You deserve everything good that there is in life.

AllanS627

Date posted: 5y ago

I understand the thinking and staying in bed to forget about it. I too just wanted to sleep because the intrusive thoughts were causing so much anxiety for me.

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y ago

Are you doing any better?

Animallover065

Date posted: 13w ago

Can anyone talk?

I’m struggling so bad. I actually started getting better but now my thoughts are back. I feel like I can’t do anything, watch a movie “oh you’re turned on by that”, go out shopping “oh you’re trying to look pretty for her”. Like what???? My brain just won’t stop!!!!!! It’s making me so depressed, I just feel like I’m about to lose it. I’m happily married, and absolutely in love with my husband. But my brain keeps saying “you’re gay! You’re bi” whatever. I’m so tired guys, I feel so alone, and this has been going on for months…

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 12w ago

I don’t know what’s wrong

I can’t stop crying. My thoughts are going insane, they’re so fast I can’t keep up. I want to tell everyone around me what’s happening (my family doesn’t even know about my OCD). I can’t seem to resist compulsions today. I’m freaking out. I want to give up. I feel like I’m suffocating in whatever is going on. I feel like I need to go to a hospital. I don’t know how to ask for help. I don’t feel okay. I don’t understand this at all. It feels like I took some random drug. I’m really scared I’m sorry, I am so panicked. It’s embarrassing but I feel so desperate for help right now I feel crazy

Anonymous_anon

Date posted: 12w ago

Tired

At this point I think I’m just tired. Took me a massive amount of strength to even type this. I’ve never had it this bad with anxiety depression and OCD. Firstly, how do you guys handle the trauma that comes with OCD. I recently realized Ive traumatized by own mind. I think this contributes to depression. Also, the thoughts frequency have gotten so high. It just literally jams its self in my brain. Before, I had some sort of control (at least a grip) but this days it’s so hard to try to get a grip. The unwanted feelings too? Omg, reactions that I literally can’t stand plagues me. My mind turns almost everything sexual. It’s crazy 🙃 Then the anxietyyyyyy! Wheew. I’m like a walking anxiety attack, my heart is always beating fast and it’s so painful. Working is so hard because I can’t get a grip, I feel so broken and I don’t think anyone can relate to this. I don’t know what I can do to help. Then the pressure in my head (that causes headache sometimes), sometimes I genuinely think I have a tumor! I’m pregnant so that makes it sadder, makes me wonder what kind of mother this beautiful soul is coming out here to meet. I don’t want to be a sad mother, and I cry more when I realize my child can feel what I feel rn in my belly😔. Another thing, the moment I don’t wanna do something, doesn’t even have to be anything bad. That’s when it feels my mind wants to force me to do it. It’s a whole lot and I’m just holding on to Jesus to help me out. At least he’s here so that’s comforting.

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