Cancel Culture OCD.

For awhile, I didn’t notice that I had cancel culture OCD, as I thought it was normal for people with OCD to feel an abnormal fear of being hated or perceived as a bad person. However, I seemed to blindly miss the huge clues that lead to this fact, which is, I am horrified that one might make a “beware” and or “cancel/exposed post” about me, to the point where I will not publish art for it. Because I want others to see me as a good human being and to be forgiven me for my horrible past, that I felt great regret over. though, through my research of exposed videos (of people doing the slightly same as me), they are not very forgiving, even if you were 16 years old, 15 years old, 13 years old, doesn’t matter. The internet makes it apparent that nothing you can do can make anyone forgive you or make you forget your mistakes. And this led me to believe I had to make sure I could be redeemed in every single real event ocd I had about my past. Because I felt that if I did something wrong, then I would never see the light of day again, truth is, I have done things that were wrong, but were all humans, but, the internet never agrees. Ive seen a video speaking about a 14 year old who drew bad stuff but wasn’t forgiven because….they just weren’t, even thought theyre a child? Please tell me I don’t stand alone on this.

Real Events OCD

dwestiny

Date posted: 6h

omg i relate so much

growwings<3

Date posted: 5h

Social media causes the worst obsessions in my opinion, especially Twitter and StanTwitter. I'll share this experience with you, maybe it could help. I'm a very private person, and I always have been since adolescence, especially on Instagram, which I used mainly to chat with my friends and exchange memes. I heard about StanTwitter a couple of years ago, and as a huge music fan, I decided to join. I joined a group with a wide range of ages, so I could stay up-to-date on what was happening, but also to improve my English. (I was like 21/22 yo) Tw was a nightmare; it has huge problems with cyberbullying, doxxing, and so on. I lived in constant fear of being bullied or doxxed. Often, it was teenagers bullying young adults, and this really shocked me because I was always taught to be respectful of others' opinions and of others, regardless of age especially online because we don't know who is behind it and what is going on in their lifes. I acted like a big sister to teenagers; I explained how to deal with cyberbullying, stay out of dramas.. but everything was making my obsessions worse! One thing that made me feel bad were the so-called "digs" especially from younger people, perhaps because of different opinions.

str4berrycoo...

Date posted: 22w

a question about cancel culture OCD

like the title says, i also suffer from cancel culture OCD, even more these last two months in which i have noticed that several people have been deleting me from social media, in fact two days ago i had a spiral as someone recently blocked me. i won't go into it to avoid the compulsion to confess but basically i had issues before with my ex and some of his friends that he himself ended up involving, even though we are on good terms he made sure to make me look like i was the problem and several mutual friends have been detaching themselves from me. the thing is, i see many people say that to fight their cancel culture OCD they delete their social media and then just. disappear. but i don't want to do this - i don't want to hide, i want to stay in the public eye and create things, in fact, i am an artist. but since the last year now i live in constant fear and also somewhat sensitive to what others think of me thanks to the rumors about me and i'm afraid that one day i might be "exposed" or something like that; and i also feel like i'm "pretending" to be a good person all the time. so, with what i already said, how do i deal with this without having to resort to deleting my social media? i think that exposing myself every day and continuing to post things on social medias despite the constant fear and guilt i feel would count as ERP, right? thanks.

SunnyAnon

Date posted: 22w

ocd + interests + online discussions

i’ve been having this theme pop up recently where if I see people either criticize or be a hater and spread misinformation or seeing old controversies about my current interests/hyper-fixations i find myself having a crazy anxiety attack about if it’s “morally okay” to be interested in my interests anymore. i feel really singled out and like im doing something wrong because im watching a youtuber or listening to a specific musical group. in all of these specific situations the people involved have talked about the situations and have changed accordingly but seeing it makes me feel like i shouldn’t be allowed to like my favorite things. to be clear none of these things are dramatically evil or bad. it’s either misinformation/uneducated people influencing someone opinion and then they learn and change. it just makes me feel like im not allowed to like my favorite things anymore because of people criticizing it??? if that makes sense??? also this is a little off topic but also not really because i’m 99.99% sure im autistic because of MANY things but with this specifically i have very strong interests and i feel very deep feelings about them and any and all criticism or hateful comments towards my favorite things trigger me deeply and make my ocd act up and make me feel uncomfortable and uncertain and anxious and it causes physical discomfort to me. i really don’t know how to calm myself down about this specific theme it’s brand new and makes me feel really anxious. not trying to look for reassurance but does anyone else understand what i mean??? does anyone have any advice on how to not give into the negative comments??? any suggestions on how to ease this specific anxiety???

"Pure" OCD

Givenup

Date posted: 16w

Pocd and youtubers

Youtubers are constantly getting accused of doing p*dophilic activity and its making me think my real events are as bad or as worse as them... Ive vented a lot to a lot of people in the PM's about my OCD... some of them younger (minors)... because I wanted reassurance from everyone and anyone... but this situation triggers me the most because I was venting about my 18+ HOCD situations... In an HOCD support group I was in, I vented to 2 minors in the PM's about my 18+ HOCD situations... The leader of the support group (that i vented to) was 17... I was 19 at the time... the other minor i vented to was younger (14-15)... the younger one told me she was uncomfortable when i vented to her in the PM's twice... i stopped and blocked her after she told me the second time... i kept asking the leader of the support group for reassurance for my 18+ HOCD situations for months because she kept giving me reassurance... i thought she was cute but didnt pursue her because of my age... i dont ever want to ever be a P or a MAP or a groomer in any way... I keep getting this gut feeling in my stomach that i "flirted" with the younger one that I vented to, who i blocked after she told me twice she was uncomfortable about me venting about my 18+ hocd situations... i didnt ever vent to them for malicious intent... I was trying to get reassurance for my hocd... Plus my pocd keeps saying I cant have any opinions online because of my pocd and real events ocd situations and that Im not a good person so I cant say anything online... Also i keep getting intrusive thoughts of people labelling me as a P and a MAP in the future because of these pocd real events... And i keep getting intrusive thoughts of being outcasted and "cancelled" online when someone "exposes" me for my POCD and real events OCD...

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