- Date posted
- 21d
Cancel Culture OCD.
For awhile, I didn’t notice that I had cancel culture OCD, as I thought it was normal for people with OCD to feel an abnormal fear of being hated or perceived as a bad person. However, I seemed to blindly miss the huge clues that lead to this fact, which is, I am horrified that one might make a “beware” and or “cancel/exposed post” about me, to the point where I will not publish art for it. Because I want others to see me as a good human being and to be forgiven me for my horrible past, that I felt great regret over. though, through my research of exposed videos (of people doing the slightly same as me), they are not very forgiving, even if you were 16 years old, 15 years old, 13 years old, doesn’t matter. The internet makes it apparent that nothing you can do can make anyone forgive you or make you forget your mistakes. And this led me to believe I had to make sure I could be redeemed in every single real event ocd I had about my past. Because I felt that if I did something wrong, then I would never see the light of day again, truth is, I have done things that were wrong, but were all humans, but, the internet never agrees. Ive seen a video speaking about a 14 year old who drew bad stuff but wasn’t forgiven because….they just weren’t, even thought theyre a child? Please tell me I don’t stand alone on this.