Idk how to get over this

I was self pleasuring and as I was climaxing already my sister popped into my head and I indulged in it for a second. Then it happened again later where I was already climaxing and jt made me climax harder. And often when I have intrusive thoughts during the actual process, the taboo stuff will start to make the sounds build up and I’ll stop bc I don’t want to get off to it even tho I’m tempted to chase it. But sometimes I’ll let the taboo stuff build it up and when I climax I ONLY focus on the feeling not the thought so it doesn’t count as me getting off to it, but idk if it does or not. Point is, I need HELP!

Stay.Fluid

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: Yesterday

Hi friend 🙂 I’ve seen a couple of your posts about this and I know you are very distressed about it. The rumination is keeping this thought around. When your brain pops this thought up and tells you that you need to figure it out, try and tell yourself this isn’t something you need certainty on right now. You climaxed, maybe to your sister, maybe not… maybe to only the sensation, maybe not. Try your best to take a break from seeking an answer on this. It will help the thought lessen. 🫶🏻

Anonymousssssss

Date posted: Yesterday

@Stay.Fluid The guilt just holds me back. I don’t want to live life where I got off to my sister and you probably wouldn’t give this advice to someone that genuinely did

Stay.Fluid

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: Yesterday

@Anonymousssssss I did give the advice to you! 🙂 Hang in there. Life will keep moving forward

R🌷.

Date posted: Yesterday

From my personal experience, I want to give you some advice. I don’t know if you’re a guy or a girl, but what matters is this: masturbation can sometimes increase intrusive thoughts and OCD symptoms. Not for everyone, but for some people it really does. I remember feeling a lot of guilt because of it, so I stopped. I haven’t done it for about two months now. My reasons were: 1. It’s religiously forbidden in some ways. 2. It lowered my self-confidence. For some people, OCD even started or got worse because of masturbation. I’m not exaggerating — especially when you’re in a sexual peak, that’s the strongest energy you have. If you waste it on nothing, you miss the chance to channel it into something useful, like sports or creating something valuable. Maybe you could limit it to once a month. Believe me, you can live without it. It’s harmful in the long run, no matter how much temporary relief it gives you. It increases guilt, and guilt always makes OCD stronger. I remember when I didn’t know about this habit and wasn’t interested in it — I was actually happier. You can live powerfully without it. It even affects the brain when you do it too often. And right now isn’t the best time to keep practicing it, because it fuels intrusive thoughts. For example, trying to push the image of your sister away is actually a compulsion. You can replace this habit with something healthier. Maybe read a book like Atomic Habits and try to build new habits instead. Even I know that often people turn to masturbation just as an escape from stress or intrusive thoughts.🌷

Anonymousssssss

Date posted: 24w

Intrusive thoughts while self pleasuring

Last night I was self pleasuring. I didn’t set out to think about anything weird but as I was doing it some pocd thoughts were in my brain. I did not get off to them, but I could have. Idk why that is but it is. Idk what to do and idk why I am this way. Is there some science about the brain while aroused or is it possible that the more gross or taboo something is I can like it?? Idk, just want to know if anyone can relate.

Anonymousssssss

Date posted: 24w

Help

I deal pretty heavily with this. The last couple days, I’ve had what I think are urges. Something pops into my head intrusively and then what stems from that is me WANTING to just indulge in it even though it’s gross. I get worried bc I used to struggle w thoughts about my dad for a long time until eventually I just purposely thought of him while self pleasuring and got off to it. While that’s something I did, it is NOT me. It all stemmed from my mental health declining a couple years back, I was never this way before. So I get worried that it almost happened or might happen with my pocd cuz I could never live with myself if it did.

Anonymous

Date posted: 17w

Intentional intrusive thoughts during pleasure and masterbation

Hey guys today I just wanted to come here and share an experience I have and I generally don't know what to do I feel like a terrible person for having these thoughts and for thinking them I genuinely don't know what to do I don't know the signs behind it and why I think the way I do but it's honestly driving me crazy I don't know what to do I have a pornography addiction for a long time it's where it's like anytime I'm an intimate moment or am masturbating my head just thinks these weird things always the same repetitive thoughts to of family members your younger sibling or a young child I myself am a 17 year old and I feel so disgusted I feel like I can't live my life anymore I feel like I'm a criminal cuz like it feels like I chose this these thoughts like I actively think them I don't know the signs behind it and I just really need professional help if there's any like therapist here that could fill me in that would be nice I would also like to know if you guys had any similar experiences because for me I feel like I have to rewatch pornography and do it right without the thoughts cuz I feel like the thoughts are just like to prevalent anytime I do anything related to masturbation why do I think this way I'm also just trying to be as honest as I can with this I'm not trying to make myself I guess a victim I'm trying to hold myself accountable if I actually am like this because I also have doubts in my head that tells me that I enjoy these things I feel like I'm going crazy someone help because it feels so real like I acted on them or that I was pleasuring myself to the thoughts and not towards the video it's just how can I live with myself you know also during it it felt like I was thinking the thought for a long period of time like it was dominating my head so I couldn't focus it felt l

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