Idk how to get over this

I was self pleasuring and as I was climaxing already my sister popped into my head and I indulged in it for a second. Then it happened again later where I was already climaxing and jt made me climax harder. And often when I have intrusive thoughts during the actual process, the taboo stuff will start to make the sounds build up and I’ll stop bc I don’t want to get off to it even tho I’m tempted to chase it. But sometimes I’ll let the taboo stuff build it up and when I climax I ONLY focus on the feeling not the thought so it doesn’t count as me getting off to it, but idk if it does or not. Point is, I need HELP!

Stay.Fluid

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 21d

Hi friend 🙂 I’ve seen a couple of your posts about this and I know you are very distressed about it. The rumination is keeping this thought around. When your brain pops this thought up and tells you that you need to figure it out, try and tell yourself this isn’t something you need certainty on right now. You climaxed, maybe to your sister, maybe not… maybe to only the sensation, maybe not. Try your best to take a break from seeking an answer on this. It will help the thought lessen. 🫶🏻

Anonymousssssss

Date posted: 21d

@Stay.Fluid The guilt just holds me back. I don’t want to live life where I got off to my sister and you probably wouldn’t give this advice to someone that genuinely did

Stay.Fluid

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 21d

@Anonymousssssss I did give the advice to you! 🙂 Hang in there. Life will keep moving forward

R🌷.

Date posted: 21d

From my personal experience, I want to give you some advice. I don’t know if you’re a guy or a girl, but what matters is this: masturbation can sometimes increase intrusive thoughts and OCD symptoms. Not for everyone, but for some people it really does. I remember feeling a lot of guilt because of it, so I stopped. I haven’t done it for about two months now. My reasons were: 1. It’s religiously forbidden in some ways. 2. It lowered my self-confidence. For some people, OCD even started or got worse because of masturbation. I’m not exaggerating — especially when you’re in a sexual peak, that’s the strongest energy you have. If you waste it on nothing, you miss the chance to channel it into something useful, like sports or creating something valuable. Maybe you could limit it to once a month. Believe me, you can live without it. It’s harmful in the long run, no matter how much temporary relief it gives you. It increases guilt, and guilt always makes OCD stronger. I remember when I didn’t know about this habit and wasn’t interested in it — I was actually happier. You can live powerfully without it. It even affects the brain when you do it too often. And right now isn’t the best time to keep practicing it, because it fuels intrusive thoughts. For example, trying to push the image of your sister away is actually a compulsion. You can replace this habit with something healthier. Maybe read a book like Atomic Habits and try to build new habits instead. Even I know that often people turn to masturbation just as an escape from stress or intrusive thoughts.🌷

Anonymous

Date posted: 20d

If you did get off to your sister it’s okay. I’m not saying you did, I don’t know, but either way it doesn’t make you a bad person. People think about all sorts of things and it doesn’t hurt anybody, so I’d say try to give yourself some grace on that. There is nothing morally wrong with having that thought cross your mind. Accepting that as one of several possibilities may actually reduce the thoughts because it gives it less power over you. Easier said than done, I know, but I believe in you.

Anonynmous19

Date posted: 23w

18+ Intrusive thoughts during s3x

I was having intimacy. Watching p0rn. And during climax i got intrusive thoughts a d anxious. I hate when this happens. As a compulsion whenever i get intrusive ocd thoughts i usually think of my wife or therapist (whose a man) and say their name. For my wife its because shes the love of my life. My comfort. And during intimacy of course to arouse over her. When i think of my therapist its not anything sexual its just like a comforting thought since hes the one that is helping me thru ocd. But now ocd is saying why did i think lf him during climax. And in my head i heard my voicr saying his name but this was my way of distracting myself from the intrusive thoughts. It wasnt to arouse myself over him it was tk distract myself and it wasnt a compulsion. Ocd tries associating it with my sexual experience and its making me feel very guilty and anxious. Then i worry was i saying his name. I did in my head but it wasnt again a compulsion tk distract from ocd. Then that made me anxious so i said my wifes name and thougjt kf her. I just had intrusive thought so i panicked and out of compulsive habit i usual say thr name of my wifr and therapist

Anonymous

Date posted: 20w

Intentional intrusive thoughts during pleasure and masterbation

Hey guys today I just wanted to come here and share an experience I have and I generally don't know what to do I feel like a terrible person for having these thoughts and for thinking them I genuinely don't know what to do I don't know the signs behind it and why I think the way I do but it's honestly driving me crazy I don't know what to do I have a pornography addiction for a long time it's where it's like anytime I'm an intimate moment or am masturbating my head just thinks these weird things always the same repetitive thoughts to of family members your younger sibling or a young child I myself am a 17 year old and I feel so disgusted I feel like I can't live my life anymore I feel like I'm a criminal cuz like it feels like I chose this these thoughts like I actively think them I don't know the signs behind it and I just really need professional help if there's any like therapist here that could fill me in that would be nice I would also like to know if you guys had any similar experiences because for me I feel like I have to rewatch pornography and do it right without the thoughts cuz I feel like the thoughts are just like to prevalent anytime I do anything related to masturbation why do I think this way I'm also just trying to be as honest as I can with this I'm not trying to make myself I guess a victim I'm trying to hold myself accountable if I actually am like this because I also have doubts in my head that tells me that I enjoy these things I feel like I'm going crazy someone help because it feels so real like I acted on them or that I was pleasuring myself to the thoughts and not towards the video it's just how can I live with myself you know also during it it felt like I was thinking the thought for a long period of time like it was dominating my head so I couldn't focus it felt l

Anonymous

Date posted: 19w

OCD overwhelming thoughts during masterbation

Guys I just wanted to hang up and I was looking at pornography every time I was you know do it and I would get bombarded with thoughts I'd get overwhelmed with them like my mind is just constantly thinking of and it was just so hard infuriating I was looking at like anime pornography and Isaw one of the videos that looks familiar I watched it before but I remember they had like a underage anime character and then I clicked off it as soon as I saw them and my mom said oh you clicked it just so you can see that and what makes it worse is like pretty ejaculation already leaked out so now it feels like I did it i didn't even jerk off to you all I did was see the thumbnail and then I have thoughts like saying oh well might as well already get off to it when it wasnt the content I wanted to see I seen that the thumbnail before in the sight I just ignored it was focusing on the video I wanted to see for now I feel like i have to restart everything not only with the overwhelming thoughts but also my thoughts made it feel like I was actively seeking it like if I want my thought it was like oh you knew it was going to be there but u still click it anyway oh yes I had a feeling but as soon as I saw it I clicked off I don't know I'm just overthinking I guess and also like as soon as I saw it like my mind had a urge like might aswell get off to it finish it very hard I don't even remember how I climaxed I don't even know if I did it right but now I feel like I have to restart

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