I am not a good person

I ain’t saying this in pity of myself but I seriously am not a good person i hatè how I feel but sometimes my fanily annoys me badly really annoys me. They took me out of school but they where only doing Whay they thought was best but I still feel a little bit of this hatred for it. I don’t hate them tho but I’m with them all day everyday cos I have no friends cos of leaving school that’s why I’m so angry I left school. But because I’m with them so much I get annoyed at them insanly easily my dad has OCD too Í understand him but for some reason my dad doesn’t understand mine or more doesnt care to understand mine cos he’s too busy with his OCD which I understand I guess. But I get so easily annoyed.

R🌷.

Date posted: 22h

sounds really sad that they pulled you out of school. After all, it’s your future. I understand your feelings — sometimes family can be hurtful, even if they don’t mean to. If I can give you some advice: Try not to spend too much time around them, and focus more on yourself. Try to explain your situation, maybe to your mom or another adult, so they understand a little better. You should also try to push them to listen to you and describe how you really feel. I know it’s hard, but leaving school affects your future, and it will make the OCD even worse. I’m not blaming you, but you really need to talk to someone about this, even your dad, so he knows you’re struggling too and that this is harming you.

R🌷.

Date posted: 22h

Why did they pull you out of school in the first place? Maybe there was some reason, but you need to prove the opposite. It’s important that you try to spend less time around them if they hurt you, and maybe you can do sports or write things down to release pressure and relax. You can also work on healing yourself and face your fears until your family is convinced to return you to school. Try again to persuade them about going back. I know it’s hard, but nothing is impossible. You can recover, go back to school, and eventually become independent from your family. Just don’t put in your mind that “it’s too hard.” Try to improve yourself so your family will be convinced.

Isaac2000

Date posted: 22h

@R🌷. They pulled me out because of my OCD but I don’t know if I fully believe that because it was in like 2020 so Covid and stuff was happening and they where all weird during Ít like conspiracy’s and stuff so they pulled me out which I think is ridiculous and thank you for the advice

R🌷.

Date posted: 18h

@Isaac2000 I understand, and I know your parents are holding on to certain beliefs, but they are not affected themselves. If your parents pulled you out of school because of OCD, you can work on improving yourself and healing. First, this will help you with your studies. Second, it will convince your parents that their child has improved. Third, it will benefit you in your relationships and build your confidence. Try to take a calm period for yourself, like a break from studying, and focus on exposure therapy, sports, or other activities — develop yourself, trust me. Keep working on yourself until your parents notice your progress. If you are not dependent on them, try to get back on track. Improve yourself as a person so your parents respect you and see that you are independent — and they will lose control over you. Let school be your motivation, exposure therapy, and healing — because you are treating yourself for your future, your studies, your life, and your friends. Let it be your drive, not just a reward.

B4ll_Tongue26

Date posted: 16w

Bad days idkk

I feel so horrible and guilty, I've been pretty depressed lately and I don't know if i'm doing something wrong or not but my mom keeps getting mad at me, and I keep getting snappy with her. The other day she tried to take a selfie with me and I kinda got mad at her because it was in front of everyone and I didn't want to get anyone uncomfortable if they were accidently in the background so I told her stop in a kind of mean way. She stopped talking to me for the rest of the night and she keeps bringing up how disrespectful I am. I tried to explain to her I didn't mean anything mean by it?? It's triggering my OCD so bad and tonight i'm going to see a band I really wanted to see, and i'm super afraid shes gonna start bringing up how mean i've been lately. I've been really depressed and upset because of school and how much work their giving me, and I've been in my room for mostly more than 10 hours a day doing nothing but watching TV because I can't bring myself out of it, I don't know what to do anymore and the guilt of me possibly being a mean and aggressive person is haunting me.

Maryam love

Date posted: 15w

Angry depression

Sometimes I feel like an overwhelmed anger that I get angry at people who did nothing to me and I feel so bad for it I really don't wNt to be that person I try my best to me nice to people because I know that everyone is going thru something But my anger is not pure anger it comes from from being so depressed and hopeless and to the people I hurt I wish I could apologize they don't deserve that But iam so scared of the person that iam becoming Sometimes I truly I wish I could end it all but my dad don't want that I don't know why it's not iam like their favorite I want to leave because if I stay I will only bring harm to people and I don't want that I feel like my purpose in life is over and there is nothing else I could offer

avantika 🪻

Date posted: 15w

feeling misunderstood

Having ocd is so incredibly exhausting and depressing- my mom and dad argued with me for over an hour talking about how im a pain to be around, go in too many loops, and ruin everything and everyones mood… this conversation started with me saying im stressed out because of school and that i dont want to go because im exhausted- and idk if this is like ocd directly but it takes me like 2 hours to get ready in the morning because i need to look PERFECT and the same everyday literally 😭 and that process feels so exhausting every morning at 6am but i will NOT go to school without going through with it- i will literally be crying and shaking and wanting to go home the minute i get to school if even a single strand of my hair is not perfectly straightened or any blemishes or flaws are showing- and i cant even walk to school or anything bc im scared the humidity will mess with my hair and everything- and it just really affects my life? And yeah its freaking exhausting. And i have two more years of highschool and I dont know if im going to make it 😭i get super stressed over grades too because i need them to be extraordinary otherwise its a fail. Nothing below 95%. And thats also tiring! 😁 and my mom told me today “medication IS NOTTTT AND OPTION!!!” Like oh okay so im just cooked 😭 and therapy isnt really helping me at all- i feel like what im being told is so basic and generic and it doesn’t help me when im in a huge ocd episode- which is often… and what i hate most is like my mom says “don’t come to me with your problems after 6pm…” im sorry i cant schedule my feelings 😭 im so tired

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