Ocd_is_horribke

Date posted: 19h

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I was going so well with my ocd, so so so well hardly any compultions. However today I told my therapist about something that happened recently, which was this situation….. I was whiping something off my boyfriends cheek and got the erge to press on harder to hurt him and in the moment it felt wanted and I felt stressed with my ocd and him kinda but idk… it’s scaring me so pressed on a little harder on his cheek and felt horrible after. However I told my therapist this and they said “I’m not sure that’s ocd so keep an eye out on it, because ocd thoughts are usually unwanted but you said it felt wanted. I’m now so scared thus situation wasn’t ocd and I’m now spiralling

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 18h

I'm sorry, but your therapist is wrong. I have had the same urge to do things like that multiple times in my life. It feels so stressful and overwhelming, and at the moment you feel like you "gave in" and then somebody got a little bit hurt. This is happened to me multiple times, and it is TOTALLY a part of OCD. I think what is happening here is that your therapist might be pretty knowledgeable about OCD, but he or she has never LIVED with it. Your therapist does not have full understanding. However, people who live with OCD understand much better. I can guarantee you that what you experienced was just another OCD moment. You don't need to spiral. Just chalk it up to another OCD thing that doesn't matter. There's lots of times I will have these weird OCD moments of thoughts or urges. And I don't even know what category to put them in. I don't even have names so I can label all of these experiences. But I have learned to just drop them and move on and not spend any time with them. In the end, it's all OCD and therefore meaningless.

Ocd_is_horri...

Date posted: 14h

@Tea and Honey Thank you so much

Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 19h

Is your therapist a trained OCD therapist who uses ERP therapy?

Ocd_is_horri...

Date posted: 18h

@Steven55! Yes

Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 18h

@Ocd_is_horribke I'm not a therapist, but it seems to me that what you're experiencing is a textbook OCD impulse. OCD attaches itself to who and what you value and what you fear. Sounds classic to me...

Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 18h

@Steven55! Also, if you really wanted to do it, you wouldn't be stressing over it.

Ocd_is_horri...

Date posted: 18h

@Steven55! Even tho it felt wanted and I did it

Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 17h

@Ocd_is_horribke OCD is a liar. The feelings seem so real, but they are BS. Look up the term "ego-dystonic." You may have pressed against him a little bit, but you went no further. You didn't hurt him.

Mayte

Date posted: 18h

I’ve been told ocd gives urges that can feel like your own. Like if you want them but you don’t. It’s the ocd unwanted urges.

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 18h

Remember, just because your therapist said something doesn't make it the gospel truth. We tend to want to believe everything they say. However, sometimes they say things that, deep down, we know are wrong. And that's okay! This doesn't mean you have to stop listening to your therapist altogether. It just means that you need to pick and choose the advice that you take from people. Choose the advice that works for you, and throw away the things that don't work or don't make sense.

Ocd_is_horri...

Date posted: 17h

@Tea and Honey But is what I did still ocd

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 17h

@Ocd_is_horribke Yes!!!! It is absolutely OCD. You don't need to worry about it.

Anonymous

Date posted: 17h

Definitely what I have felt compulsion in the past. It is OCD like behavior. I can see sort of why they didn't see it as OCD but I think it's from both the story teller words and the audience that certain choice words come up leaning to not. Some people's journey their compulsion are more impulsive. Humans are curious creatures that we still stick our fingers in Chinese finger traps. Both are propelled by a desire but intentions are different. Compulsion is wanting to not feel as bad or relief if action is done (scratching a mosquito bite), impulsive is wanting to do something to feel good or the sake of doing it (grabbing a hot pot without mittens while still thinking i should grab mittens for this). Sometimes it overlaps especially when stressed or tired or too many prompts to do such an action through gaslighting. I don't know if you had thoughts of these before but OCD does do that gaslight to wear a person's judgement down even if no action is ever taken; it's all about keeping up some emotional drama to not be bored and suspect everything. It's all okay, humans are durable. No more pain on that cheek nor your reputation. You're okay.

Secretidentity

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 22w

Please please send advice

I had to do a new exposure with my therapist two weeks ago involving my boyfriend where I had to share some of my intrusive thoughts and I know that it hurt him to hear some of them I could see it in his eyes and now I’m terrified he’s going to leave me my ocd isn’t the worst it’s ever been but it’s now the worst it’s been in a while and I’m back to doing one of the compulsions I had completely stopped and now idk what to do. I feel like I’m in this never ending cycle of doing really bad then doing really good. I just want my ocd gone I want to be normal again and not obsess ever my relation anymore. Sorry for the rant I’m just exhausted from my ocd and feel super depressed and I think it’s from my ocd. I just feel like I’m spiraling

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Andi 🤓☝️

Date posted: 20w

Triggered from NOCD article

Guys for the past couple of hours ive been spiraling! I wad researching and came across this harm ocd article question that has been worrying me. The title was "im scared of hurting someone when I'm mad. Can i trust myself?" And I was thinking "hey that's what ive been worried about for the past several months!" I even AVOID being angry. Im scared of it bc I get a lot of thoughts and I'm hyperaware of my hands and feel them tingly! Last time i tensed so hard to stay still as possible bc I was so so nervous from my thoughts and my hand twitched which made me SPIRAL. I never want to cause harm! And i always start crying after an argument bc the thoughts are so so scary! Anyway I got afraid bc the article said "research has shown that people with ocd don't struggle with impulse control- so if you find yourself intensely worried you could do harm based on the intrusive thoughts or urges you have, it's likely something else is going on." THAT SENTENCE HAS LEFT ME WITH A TON OF ANXIETY! Its so bad, my appetite is gone! I'm scared does this mean I don't have ocd and should be seriously concerned?!

roszip-0toMd...

Date posted: 16w

Please help!!!

TW! please someone comment When I was 12 or 13 I used to babysit a little girl, she had a habit of keeping her hand in her diaper and was always touching herself, there was one point I was changing her diaper and noticed she was really red. I had separated her private parts and checked the inner area for signs of infection. She was okay, just some really really bad diaper rash. I know this is what happened yet my brain is trying to convince me that I hurt her, and that I wanted to do it, I know I would never hurt a child but with all the anxiety I feel when I think about it I'm starting to wonder if I did do it because I wanted to hurt her, I don't wanna be a p, I don't wanna hurt innocent children, I used to never have these thoughts but now I do and I'm so scared to tell my therapist as she hasn't diagnosed me with ocd yet. I don't want her to think I'm a p nor do I wanna hurt kids, but my brain keeps telling me that I do and that I'm just lying to myself and everyone around me, ik I would never do something that could harm a child but I keep getting these thoughts and their inappropriate and I just want them to stop, does anyone have any tips on how to help myself? I keep turning to my boyfriend for reassurance but ik that that's just a quick fix and that ill be spiraling about it again.Please help

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