Schizophrenia fear

Struggling right now with these thoughts that I could have or am developing schizophrenia. My mom was diagnosed late in life and it’s always been a fear of mine since. But I recently lost my job and being home has given me so much time to overthink. Then I get triggered by thinking I saw something or thinking I heard something and then needing reassurance. I’m not looking for reassurance on here, I think I’m just venting and hoping to hear if others deal with this what they do to help. Logically I know if I did have it I wouldn’t be posting on here and crying my eyes out. I just wish the fear wasn’t so strong 😔 sorry for the long post. Just a tough night I guess

🍒Kk123🍒

Date posted: 16w

Hi! My mom isn’t schizophrenic but she has had a couple mental breaks and I am so scared I’m going to end up in the same spot as her… I lost my job also due to an ocd flare up that was debilitating! Now I just constantly think I’m on the verge of being a physcopath. It’s ocd…

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 16w

@🍒Kk123🍒 I’m so sorry you’re struggling with that! I’ve been there! When I was first diagnosed it was with harm ocd and this fear of becoming a horrible person. Now the two fears have morphed together and it’s a fear I’ll get schizophrenia and thennn ill become this evil person 🤦🏻‍♀️ the brain is wild

🍒Kk123🍒

Date posted: 16w

@Anonymous Oh mine has done that also which has made it super difficult for me to take medication!

Rrego1500

Date posted: Yesterday

How you been? You’re not alone in this at all. This is what I deal with ever since I was diagnosed with ocd. My uncle has schizophrenia, it terrifies me! Before ocd happened I never worried about it at all. I didn’t even think about it. Was enjoying life. Caught strip throat, developed ocd harm then it morphed into schizophrenia ocd! The fear is so fucking real

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: Yesterday

@Rrego1500 It’s definitely been up and down. My ocd seems to flip flop a lot and I think it’s partially due to being better at recognizing it. So my ocd is like ok let’s go back to this theme and make a worse scenario. I have harm ocd too and those initial thoughts are what made me seek help and get diagnosed. I had always worried about getting schizophrenia because of my mom but never knew my checking was ocd. I think that’s the hardest part for me to not do, I’m almost always checking myself too see if I seem off. Then when the harm ocd came into play I spiraled so bad. And the maybe maybe not to harm thoughts is so unsettling but I understand why. And logically to all makes sense I just wish it wasn’t a thing. Always here to chat if you need!

Rrego1500

Date posted: Yesterday

@Anonymous Yeah it’s seriously debilitating. When I read your comment I literally read myself. My ocd went after my toddler and it seriously scared the shit out of me. I didn’t even wanna be alone with him which put a lot of stress cuz of how much I love him….. once I found out it was ocd I got over it pretty fast but then the whole schizophrenia thought came in and my mind spiraled so fucking bad For me it literally came out of no where. Almost like an over night thing, after I got sick. Didn’t even know what anxiety felt like cuz I never had it. Now I have anxiety, ocd! I really appreciate your response. Same to you, if you need to reach out I’m here. We’re all struggling but I’ve learned we definitely not alone in this journey!

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