Pedophilia OCD

For the past year I have had thoughts surrounding pedophelia. Never in my 32 years of life have I ever had this thought till a year ago. It started with a bizzarre dream and then I went to work. I work with children so it immediately blew it out of control. I constantly am checking myself both physically and mentally to make sure but my OCD keeps bringing in doubt. I have had my ups and downs my ups are generally when I’m not around the kids but my downs come when I am near them. It has gotten to the point where I have had thoughts of suicide. The thoughts extend to all areas of my life. I then begin to think I’ll be in jail. I’ll be fired. I’ll be outkasted of society. It has caused quite the distress. Any suggestions would be amazing

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Date posted: 1y

I'm no psychologist but I wonder if this theme or fear only shows up when we become adults and older teens it's like there's another fear surrounding it. Cause I also have that and I never got it until I was like 15-17 yrs old and I'm 19 now. I think it's like the fear of having to be the perfect a adult. Afraid of prison etc. And I think even some fictional characters on TV or watching true crime can reflect that fear I have one like "oh if that guy was capable of it then I am too" but it's literally just ocd. Cause ocd takes things that you value the most like rules and morals. And this is considered taboo and a moral to us so it latches onto that. I have so many theories.

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Date posted: 13h

Hi omg um I really feel tgis and ight now am a 16 year old um am am struggling with tgis so bad and today I kept having like little throughts until one very big ine set it if I get tgis in my readibg too

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Date posted: 1y

Hello! I'm sorry you're in this situation, but we all, literally we all have bad episodes of this kind! I hope you see a therapist, that's the first step! Then you must have knowledge of what it is, as well as the techniques you will practice! It's not easy at all! It seems awfully real and it's getting deeper and deeper if you let it! It is important that you know that it is fear, and fear is disguised in all forms and types of feelings and thoughts! It is important that you work on yourself, so much so that you learn to separate ocd from your real self! It's important not to avoid children, and it's important to know that despite your thoughts, feelings and urges, you continue to do everything normally that you would do if you didn't have OCD. It makes sr scary, but as you learn and time passes while you do it, it gets easier

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