Micromanaging Boss/OCD

Lately I have been micromanaged by my boss where I have to give updates at the end of each day. I cringe sending them because I wonder what critique I’ll receive in return. Lately he hasn’t been happy with my progress and wants to help me out. But I honestly find my boss incompetent because he’s not in the trenches with me working on tasks that I do daily. I suffer from OCD, especially checking OCD, in which the tasks I do are a trigger for it. I don’t want to tell my boss I have OCD because it’s confidential to me and who knows how they will react to the diagnosis. It’s just tough because there’s times I want to tell my boss so he can give me some grace…. I’ve been looking for other jobs because I don’t feel very valued and being micromanaged every day eats you up. I’m wondering too what jobs I can do that wouldn’t make my OCD so bad… Anyways, just looking to see if anyone else has dwelt with this. It’s not a fun time for sure.

Anonymous

Date posted: 22h

I was in a very similar situation. I struggle with checking OCD as well and worked in a very toxic environment. I was micromanaged and was told I was incompetent at my job by someone in upper management. This individual was really the one who was incompetent at their job. The stress of all this constantly gave me anxiety which would make my OCD worse in general. I eventually realized it wasn’t me and it with this individual who was incompetent and had issues. I ended up leaving this company and got a job somewhere else where I feel appreciated, where I am not micromanaged and don’t have to deal with the stress of being in a toxic environment. Things improved with my OCD after that. As far as disclosing your OCD to your boss, that isn’t something I did based on personal preference. I didn’t feel disclosing that would help me. That decision is up to you and your information to share if you want. I can definitely relate to how you are feeling. Try to stay positive even though it isn’t easy. I hope things work out for you.

Jess9824

Date posted: 17h

@Anonymous Thank you for the reply. It’s nice to know that I’m not the only one that battled this. I’m thankful you were able to get out of that job and into a better one. I try to limit my compulsions at work but because of the stress it only makes it worse. I’ve been using the app to keep me from going over. Easier send than done because I have the “just right” battle of OCD too along with checking. At the end of the day I’m so drained. And the micromanaging only makes me more on edge. Having to email my boss what I have done each day is killer. I agree that disclosing my OCD to my boss wouldn’t be wise. I’m thinking of a career change possibly. Something that’s more accommodating for sure. But I don’t know what jobs would be best for someone like me with OCD. I know my very first job I got laid off because of it. At the time I had undiagnosed OCD. I fear this is another repeat. As you probably well know OCD is a beast to deal with 24/7.

Anonymous

Date posted: 9h

You’re welcome. It was also nice to know that I am not the only one who battled this as well. I also try to limit my compulsions at work but it is definitely a struggle at times. This app and ERP therapy have seriously helped me so much so far. I’m still on my journey of learning to live with OCD though. I am sorry to hear that OCD had an impact on your first job. Look into a career change and do what feels right for you. My job is very detailed oriented and that can be a great thing with OCD or a curse. In the right environment, it is a great thing for me. That is just my experience with it. You are diagnosed now so you can take the right steps to work on living with OCD. Try to stay positive even though I know it is hard at times. There is a light at the end of tunnel. There are many other people dealing with the same struggles. Just know, we are not alone.

uncertain_Aly

Date posted: 25w

Does OCD impact your ability to get to work?

Often times I find myself spiraling out in the morning about all sorts of things. When I try and catch myself and figure out what I am obsessing over it’s like it goes away. I haven’t moved. I have been sitting frozen on the floor because I can’t go to work because I am behind on work and I hate being late and I hate being messy but I am frequently late and my room is cluttered and full of stuff. I want to be good and move and go to work but I don’t know what is coming today and I hate my job so I know I will get bored and when I have nothing to keep me busy and engaged I like start thinking and taking an inventory of what is going on and then I will feel a sensation and what is the sensation? How did it happen? And I know that I will pick up the bad emotions in the office and get contaminated, I was really worried about things like this as a kid too I cried because I had to touch dirt in kindergarten. I know I am this way and I have been this way for a while but at the same time I think I might just be normal and like I don’t know why I get stuck in thinking like this. Then I begin to doubt that OCD is real because everyone has a brain with wiring and everyone gets stuck in thought sometimes. I feel disabled from whatever this is because I am stuck. I literally cannot move because I don’t know what’s wrong and I know I have to go to work even though I feel like every moment I spend there is making everything worse because other people are so stressed and I get it from them. And I don’t feel ready because I just feel off and something is wrong and I just don’t know what to do because if it’s OCD or not OCD everything anyone knows about me is coming from me and I worry that I am often masking all the thinking I’m doing because thinking all the time is rude and inconsiderate and inconvenient for those around me, but I can’t stop. I just don’t feel right, right now - and I want to know WHY?? Why is everything off all the time? How do I even know that I am not making up the experience of OCD in my head to cover up something really wrong with me and now I am taking on the symptoms of OCD like an actress, because this could be something that I can latch onto as a final hope for explaining why I am stuck. So stuck so deeply and terribly stuck sitting on my floor next to my bed just scrolling to avoid thinking because any time I start thinking I am left with no answers or help or anything just this swirly feeling. I know I am trying, maybe not my best, but as much as I possibly can. I want to be a Special Education Teacher but I have so much so so so much doubt and uncertainty about every decision I make and everything I know that I can’t get there right now. I can’t do anything right now until it feels ok and then I will. It never feels ok. I know I have to be ok not feeling ok about it. I can be unsure and still be ok. I know it’s just my thinking and my body but I just can’t get past this feeling. And then I know that because I can calm myself and be ok even though I spent 2 hours of my life today already feeling stuck and spinning around and around and around in my head - I don’t feel sure about my OCD and I think it’s a bit of a scam made up by people to cultivate pathology around deep human thought because one day I might figure it out and we all think a lot.

Sam0506

Date posted: 23w

Should I share my ocd diagnosis with new employer?

I posted the other day about my subtype of staring ocd but I’m supposed to start a new job next week. I work in wellness/beauty and will be seeing people half naked. It doesn’t trigger me as I’m treating clients but only when I’m not supposed to be looking (like normal interactions). It happens when people wear very revealing clothes or are super curvy and my eye goes to that area. It also happens when people are adjusting themselves and my eye goes to their hands. It’s very embarrassing and I quit my last job because of this and I don’t want to make more people feel uncomfortable. It left me very depressed and hopeless. It’s such a frustrating type of ocd to deal with because it impacts me financially and socially. I just want to feel okay. Anyways, I’m writing this because I’m wondering if I should share with my new employer about this issue so I don’t weird anyone out or keep it to myself? I’m not sure what to do. I need money as I have a mortgage and two kids and would like to help my husband. I’m currently on Zoloft 50mg, have done therapy but this is such a hard type to treat as it’s not the cleaning type. I know I’m not supposed to ask for advice about what to do but I need to know so I can make a decision and not get cold feet.

Cara H.

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 22w

Work related OCD

Does anyone have OCD regarding always feeling like you are not good enough at your job? I'm 58 years old now I've had OCD since childhood. Every job I've been at I never felt as good as my colleagues. I am a nurse but I worked at that for 15 years I had a breakdown of sorts in 2017 and went on disability. I now work part time as a a swim instructor for kids. I always was afraid of killing someone when I was a nurse. Then I tried dog grooming but I was afraid I would do it wrong and hurt the dogs. At least now the stakes are lower. But my OCD is the same. I work with colleagues who are about 40 years younger than I am . I am afraid of teaching certain classes bc I feel like I wouldn't do as good a job as someone else. I know I can do it but it's like I have a fear of not giving them their money's worth. I've been at my current job for 2 years . I've gotten very positive comments from my managers but I can't seem to believe them. I feel a lot of shame bc I lost a lot of my life to OCD and I am at an age where people are starting to retire after long and successful careers and here I am working at an entry level job. I'm planning on trying to get out of my comfort zone and teaching some of the classes I'm afraid of .it's really hard. I'm always scared what if I lose my benefits and had to work again as a nurse how would I do it.

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