Does anyone else have this happen to them?

So does anybody ever have moments where something happens and it triggers anxiety and they can't choose whether they should or shouldn't confess to others about it? I was talking with a friend and I noticed that saliva flew out of my mouth and looked like it got into food and I wanted to say something but I just couldn't get passed whether I should or not because of the anxiety and then I ended up not saying anything and I feel awful about it. Then an insect flew into my side of the food and I ate it anyway because I really didn't want it to go to waste.

Roseelane

Date posted: Yesterday

Yes, I deal with this often, but remember as well that confessing can be a compulsion and in this case it sounds like it is one of yours. It’s just as important not to give into strong compulsions as they feed the OCD. If something happens in the moment you can say something, but if the moment passed and there is no harm, then it’s best to move on and not give into the compulsion. You got this

BigGyro09

Date posted: Yesterday

Could it actually be a confession? This seems like something I feel like someone else would do. But the anxiety just catches me in a loop. This isn't the first time it's happened either. I remember in class one day I got an OCD thought saying I should tuck my arm in to let someone pass or I'll seriously regret it and I tried to fight against it by doing the opposite and thought what's the worst that could happen but the worst did happen because that person's rear touched my elbow and it was like I froze in the anxiety. I hate it when this happens so much. It feels like I did do harm

Roseelane

Date posted: Yesterday

@BigGyro09 I would say you’re definitely experiencing compulsions, though I can’t diagnose. OCD will always try to convince you that you did something wrong or something bad will happen, and to combat those thoughts we deal with compulsions. Such as confessing, ruminating, or seeking reassurance. It’s a difficult disorder because anything you do to try and comfort yourself makes it worse. But know that OCD is a liar, and it wants you stuck in those loops. Sometimes the best response is to entertain the thought like it’s funny and then try and occupy your thoughts elsewhere

BigGyro09

Date posted: 18h

@Roseelane I've been diagnosed with OCD. It's just hard to see it as anything but that even if to other people it looks like I have OCD written all over this. I'm just trying to think of it without any judgement or just not think about it at all. I hate this and I hate when these things happen without my intent.

Roseelane

Date posted: 15h

@BigGyro09 I get that, but OCD is a disorder of control. Some things you just can’t control

BigGyro09

Date posted: 14h

@Roseelane Right.. there is something else that I feel is in my control that's bothering me I bought snacks and 2 bottles of Clorox and they were put in two separate bags because you shouldn't put food with cleaning products. When I was bringing them home, there were times where I had to put both bags in one hand and now I'm worried that my snacks are contaminated and I can't through them out. The bottles of Clorox were tightly closed and the snacks were not opened and I didn't smell anything that was Clorox and I didn't see anything that spilled anywhere. I'm still worried regardless though. Should I throw the bags out or is this a chance for me to do the opposite of what OCD is saying?

Roseelane

Date posted: 14h

@BigGyro09 Do the opposite, they’re likely not contaminated and I would look into getting a therapist if you don’t have one. I fear you seeking reassurance and I don’t want to feed your OCD. You got this ok?

BigGyro09

Date posted: 13h

@Roseelane Okay.. I do have a therapist. I'll try and do the opposite and try not to throw them away. I may confess to others about it at most. Thank you.

BigGyro09

Date posted: 12h

@Roseelane So I went ahead and opened one bag and I'm currently eating the chips. They don't taste weird and didn't have a weird smell to them so I think they're good. They taste like they always do. I just hope this ends up being a good exposure that results in nothing happening.

Roseelane

Date posted: 6h

@BigGyro09 The fact that you did it was already a great step forward

NOAHAHMED

Date posted: 24w

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Michele32

Date posted: 22w

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shlud

Date posted: 9w

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potential trigger warning cus insects and stuff (contamination ocd?) . Its summer in the UK, and theres a lot more bugs around. I dont dislike bugs, and if we're outside its whatever, but I realised i have huge fears when bugs are in my house. I keep getting images of fruit flies or other bugs bein at the bottom of my drink whenever i see one, or them flying into my eyes or mouth and how horrible that would feel. Ive realised i constantly feel on edge when theres insects. Its not debilitating and i can push past it pretty easily but I will stay stressed and anxious until i forget about them or go somewhere else. I also sometimes search rooms for bugs kindof subconciously? like when I enter a room - especially the bathroom cus you feel more vulnerable and all that in there - im always looking around, checking walls and the ceilings and looking to see if the window was left open and bugs mightve gotten in. Dead insects also make me feel really guilty. I remember as a kid i used to litterally break into sobbing tears when my dad would kill a fly, and although I dont cry anymore I feel just as bad whenever I see a insect dead in the bathtub or sink (where they often get stuck cus slippery surface + water) Does anyone know how to lessen my fears around bugs and the guilt? Im not scared of the bugs themselves at all. I love bugs, i find moths and ladybugs and spiders really cute but its just the "what if they get in my eye" and "what if i kill them" that repeats in my head whenever im around one.

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