some of my school embarassing intrusive thoughts

- what if i fall backwards in front of the whole class ? - what if i strip down and reveal myself in front of everyone ? - what if i hurt one of my good friendships by doijg something bad ? - what happens if i start an argument with the teacher ? - what if i start violently vomiting / retching ? - what if i read a worse inappropriately wrong aloud ? - what if my crush finds out i like him ? - what if i randomly blurt out a random classmates name for no reason ? - what if the teacher gets super upset and yells at me ? - what if i answer the question wrong ? - what if i cry super loud ? - what if i open my phone and something vulgar starts blasting this is only a few of the many i think on the daily. theres so many what ifs and infinite possibilities its hard to protect myself from all of them and feel secure

Hello777

Date posted: 4w

I suppose maybe just try to have more confidence in yourself. For most of these things - so what??? So what if that happens? Will the world end?? If you fall back in your chair, who cares what people think? I’d be more worried that you don’t hurt yourself!! I have answered questions wrong, cried really loud, said stupid things sometimes!! Maybe those are the things that just make you you! Here’s a wild thought! Maybe people will like you for just being you!!

Hello777

Date posted: 4w

@Hello777 Regarding hurting a good friend, most of us hurt each other from time to time unintentionally! You can always say you are sorry! Just don’t do something really bad like cheating with their girlfriend or boyfriend or doing something really bad. But people make mistakes sometimes in other contexts and working through them can make relationships better. Regarding a teacher, you can always voice your different thoughts in a kind way? Did you grow up in a household where you had to be “perfect” or something like that? Where you couldn’t be yourself at all or where there was a lot of tension? I’m just trying to see where this might come from! 🙏🙏

cherriecola

Date posted: 23d

@Hello777 i grew up very insecure and shy and got embarassed awfully easily . its sort of the flip opposite i feel no where near perfect while everyone else is perfect. i wanted to be but never was

Hello777

Date posted: 21d

@cherriecola Hi again! Do you feel like maybe you have intense social anxiety? Have you ever been prescribed an SSRI like Zoloft? I am not a doctor but sometimes a medication like that can really help take the edge off all those worries. I would start slowly on like 25 mg, then maybe go to 50 mg just to see how you feel on it. I think the highest possible dose is like 200 or 300 in extreme circumstances, but even like 50 mgs might really help you. Again, I’m not a doctor, but it could really help you with all of these “What ifs” and the extreme social anxiety and self doubt. Keep me posted if you would like to! 🙏💖

cherriecola

Date posted: 20d

@Hello777 i used to have social anxiety but now im just labeled introverted. i still get anxious talking to new ppl and presenting, i may choke or stutter but now nearly as badky as i usss to

briarleighh

Date posted: 4w

All those what ifs sound overwhelming. Your brain is trying to scan for every possible danger so you can stay safe but it ends up exhausting you instead. Everyone has random intrusive thoughts and embarrassing daydreams but yours are showing up louder and more often. None of those what ifs mean you will actually do those things. They are just anxious thoughts passing through. You do not need to protect yourself from every single one though. 💕 It is okay to let them drift by without giving them all your energy.

samlovesjesus

Date posted: 22w

kind of a rough day

i’m trying to not let the thoughts bother me but it’s just so stressful. even me typing that feels like i’m lying when i know i’m not. i’m scared because even my therapist tells me that it’s just ocd, but in the back of my mind i slightly don’t believe her, and its making me scared that i AM like those people and im gonna act on something. sometimes in social moments i get a quick thought of me being an outcast because im like those people who are sick in the head and act on that stuff, and it just makes me feel like i truly am gonna eventually act on something. another thing that bothered me is earlier my mom yelled at me for not doing school work (it was well deserved im really slacking on it) and i had like no reaction to her screaming. it had me thinking what if i have no empathy etc etc, and what if i get mad that she yelled at me and i do something involving those thoughts. how do i TRULY know it’s ocd? like i try to remind myself and be like “dude, your therapist said it’s ocd, she isn’t wrong” but the back of my mind is like “she is wrong, it’s not ocd and she just happened to misdiagnose you. you are gonna act on those thoughts and it’s your fate”. please someone respond if you read all of this, im really struggling

justsomone1

Date posted: 21w

ocd or phycosis?

idk why this is such a recurrent thing for me , I get so scared through the day when I’m not distracted when I think about psychosis. or being put in a mental hospital that it gives me bad anxiety, one time I had a panic attack at the thought of having it 💔 I can’t pin point if it’s intrusive thoughts because it’s a fear of mine .. or not. I think this is the worst thought / fear I have

FallenSun

Date posted: 14w

uhh do i have ocd-

So scared to post this not wanting to sound dramatic incase i dont have it so uh yeah lets go Ive been struggling with this ocd spiral, googling everything i can, taking stupid test that prob dont mean anything, i dont really have compulsions i think? but anyways i cant let it go unless i know. ill give list of reasons why - I get intrusive thoughts i dont want, like sexual or harm related ones, multiple times a day- Yes ik intrusive thoughts are normal so this is probably nothing. To try and give an idea on how many or how constant- when i look at something either that be a person, pet, or an object can be fictional things to- there is a high chance of a thought or mental image popping up -I feel shame and guilty about it because it goes against everything, im asexual so having these thoughts about my family or animals is really upsetting and disturbing bc why am i thinking this, it doesn't feel normal -i try and push them away by blinking, shaking my head, or just walk away from what triggered them -i spiral trying to figure out whats wrong with me for example ofc my brain thinking i have ocd and it filling my brain. or can be about physical health or other mental health disorders- -i constantly am switching between thinking i have it to im faking it. When i see symptoms i have i think, "Okay wait, i must have it" to where when i see a symptom i don't have, i tell myself. "No im just lying for attention or im being dramatic and these aren't real problems". but like rn im struggling with thinking none of this really even happened and i'm just saying things so ppl think sm wrong with me - sometiems i avoid things that trigger it- not alot but like when i get a thought about my dog when im about to pet her, i stop- and walk away becuase it might come true. -i fear something is wrong with me, wether it be my mind, body, health, personality- -im scared to open up about these thoughts becuase im scared people will thing im lying, im weird, or ill be sent to a mental hospital. -also reassuring-seeking. now this isnt a big thing to me but when i think i offended someone i have to say "sorry if i offended you" or if i think i annoyed someone i must say "sorry if i annoyed you", OR i kinda down talk myself saying im annoying, there annoyed with me, they hate me This has been nagging me for days, and i cant get it to stop- BECAUSE what if i do and i don't get it diagnosed and ill deal with this forever or whatever, ik ppl have it worse and i'm probably being dramatic, high possibility. but i'm also scared to tell a therapist bc of that same exact reason and fear of being called dramatic and its all in your head. but uhm hopefully i didn't say anything bad and didn't repeat anything.

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