The loss of love ones during OCD journey.

Last year, I started to get HOCD, and I didn’t know what was going on. And then a couple weeks later, my Auntie died from cancer. I couldn’t be there for her, because my mind was wrapped compulsions. And a couple of months later, I started to get Religious OCD. And I’ve been trying to do proper treatment for my OCD recovery with an other app, and 3 weeks later. I discovered that my grandmother had cancer. And yesterday, I found out that history repeat itself, because she died the following year of my Auntie’s death. First my Auntie, and now my Grandma. Why I do have OCD at times like this? Why do they have to die? Why couldn’t I be there for them? Who else is going to be next? I never wanted my Auntie or Grandmother to gone, and I never wanted OCD to get in the way. Now I really need to seek professional help with license therapists here, but I don’t know how much it’s going to cost. I know that it’s going to be expensive per session, but I do really need help.

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 11w

I'm so so sorry to hear this about the recent passing of your family members. OCD always wants us to connect our "mistakes" (of not following the OCD rules) with harm or death in other people. For example, one time when I thought I made a mistake (which was really just breaking an OCD rule), my son got really sick. I thought it was all my fault that my son got sick. He is a runner and wants to run at the next level, and I thought I had perhaps messed up the rest of his life because of my "mistake." This seems laughable to other people, but it seems so real to someone with OCD. Treatment will help you a lot!! But it's important to get the right treatment. Some people shop around for years before they really get a treatment that works. I think it's really important to get ERP therapy from a therapist who has ERP training. All the therapists at NOCD are trained in ERP. I really can't recommend NOCD enough. It was very helpful for me in my journey. The founder of NOCD, Stephen Smith, was drowning in his OCD at the beginning. He was a college football player who got reduced to just staying in his room all day because of the disorder. He tried other therapies, but it was the ERP therapy that really unlocked him and got him back to his life. And so he founded NOCD, so that other people could have the same success. I also want to tell you that I have struggled with religious OCD for most of my life. And I would love to be able to talk to you if you are also struggling. There are a lot of things that I have learned over the years. So please feel free to write anytime!! I really enjoy talking to people on this app:):) Big hugs. You are starting out on your journey. But things can get so much better!!!! You can look forward to better things to come . Here's the link to get a phone call with NOCD, if you want. It's free, by the way. https://home.treatmyocd.com/calendar You can also email them anytime at this email. They are very friendly. care@nocdhelp.com

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 11w

@Tea and Honey One more thing. NOCD takes most insurance. I just had a $30 co-pay per session. NOCD was also awesome about working with me regarding the frequency of my sessions, which are all over Zoom by the way. I chose to have sessions twice a month. But I think I could have chosen to have them once a month, or every week, or whatever I said I could afford.

E.Sal#1

Date posted: 10d

@Tea and Honey I have one question about the session time, and the free call. Is that the 15 minute session free, or does the 15 min cost money?

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 10d

@E.Sal#1 I think that should be free :):):)

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