Fear of believing delusions

Been dealing with this for a Lil over a year and I still feel alone and the only person who's dealing with this theme. I look on reddit, Google and YouTube especially ted talks to compare myself to people with schizophrenia. I read a case study where this guy thought a demon was inside his body and I was triggered and had a thought what if there's an alien in my head. It's so stupid and ridiculous but I get intense guilt for even having the thought. Then my imagination keeps coming up with intrusive images and I have thoughts I must believe it because I'm so scared. This is the worst theme

sandraoctober

Date posted: 13w

I can 1000000% relate to you same with me 😭 idk man i really want to get out of this thoughts sending hugs hope everything will be fine🙌

Ragnarking18

Date posted: 13w

Thank you same to you. It's awful feeling like the craziest person in the world

Godisincontrol

Date posted: 13w

you are definitely not, I have to remind myself I have this condition

Ragnarking18

Date posted: 13w

It's exhausting sometimes I tell myself just be delusional screw it it's better than arguing with the ocd all day

Starve_The M...

Date posted: 2d

Hey I'm going through something that's very similar and it always started with the fear of believing delusions I've had a thought like what if clouds aren't real and then it moved on to what if I believe that everyone around me is not real and that's like it involves him what if I think that everyone around me or a lizard aliens like the dumb conspiracy theory but here's the thing although I keep saying I don't believe it and arguing with it it feels very real like I can logically know that that's irrational and are true but sometimes it feels like it's real and it's a scary because I'm on I'm scared of believing delusions and then like over time it's like wait am I scared of believing delusions now or am I actually afraid of the delusion and I sometimes I can't like really differentiate it at all and that's what scares me what if I'm losing touch with reality slowly I'm so scared I want to go check if I had schizophrenia they said I don't but it still doesn't change the fact that these thoughts are creepy as f*** and annoying like I don't want to think of my family in such a way not even me thinking it's like intrusive OCD thoughts you got any advice something that sort of helped me a bit was erp and when the anxiety got really bad I just sat with the anxiety though it felt very real at the moment then it went away but the thing is these intrusive thoughts are so dumb and yes I do have a fear of believing them but it feels like I'm lying about that and that's what I hate

Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 13w

Are you in OCD therapy with a trained therapist who uses ERP therapy? If not, please consider getting help. OCD is treatable with a trained OCD coach. Contact NOCD for a free consultation.

ello12

Date posted: 10w

Hey! This theme absolutely sucks!!! Trust me, my themes come and go but this one.. dang. I hate it! It’s gotten to the point where I make up delusions in my head and convince myself I believe it and that I am in a state of psychosis. ERP will help!! Watch schizophrenia simulations on YouTube. It’s super scary at first but it does help. Say it loud… trust me, it’ll get better :) Are you seeing anyone at the moment? Taking any meds?

Ragnarking18

Date posted: 10w

I tried therapy on here but I kept getting crazy thoughts I felt I had to confess. I'm on anafranil it helps the panic attacks but I still have thoughts all day. Yea I've watched those simulation videos it pits my mind at ease for awhile

Ragnarking18

Date posted: 2d

Thanks for the advice bro. This is the worst theme I've ever been through. I'm sorry your going through it too

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