- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 8w
Thug it out soup
The distress comes from not knowing. Most of the time, we treat “I don’t know” as though it somehow means we do know, but in reality, we probably never will. When you lean into that uncertainty, the doubt grows, and that is what makes escaping this disorder so difficult. The more you ignore it, the stronger its tactics become, but I don’t mean ignore in the sense of pushing it away or denying it. I mean refusing to believe the lies it tells you. That distinction is subtle at first, but as you sit with the fiery anxiety or the crushing despair, you begin to notice a pattern: what fuels all of this is growing doubt, directly proportional to your lack of clarity about your own scruples. Moving beyond OCD requires a form of faith and a choice. Even when your thoughts feel catastrophic, heavier than a hellstorm, you choose to live according to your values and to hold your own beliefs about your thoughts. There is no one-size-fits-all method for healing, as each theme and manifestation is different for every person. But here is what I can tell you: the more you lean into uncertainty, the more intense the doubt and guilt become. It becomes a question of endurance, who will be the last one standing, you or the OCD? Recovery demands action. You must behave your way out of this disorder, sometimes by acting as if you don’t know, faking it until you make it, until your defiance outweighs the disorder’s grip.