Could somebody help me? I have problems with porn and masturbation and this makes me feel so bad that affect my belief. Like I am christian and I keep thinking about my salvation, God forgiviness and my sins. I have OCD, mainly on POCD, but taking meds this changed a lot. The intrusive thoughts changed and start to be about death, future and religion. I have too much anxiety too and sometimes out of nowhere I just start to feel aroused and excited and my anxiety goes really high. My stomach even hurt like if I am with stomach ache and this dont pass until I watch porn or masturbate. Its like a torture that drive me to use this things as a escape. I am not here asking reassurance, but asking help to overcome this problem or understand it. Its dificult for me because of my religion condenm these acts, even if you are single. I kind understand, but this make me suffer a lot. At the same time I keep doubting myself like if God is angry at me doimg thos over and over again after asking for forgiviness for him for doing this. I really dont know what to do, I indeed wanted this to be a normal thing and not be condenmed. And I am not questioning it, but just saying out loud what I feel and that I dont want to do that again if it will make me feel guilty and bad and everything.

mangobango

Date posted: 5y

Just sit with the anexity and pain and slowly breathe... sounds like masturbation has become some sort of a compulsion... its not wrong in any means what so ever in religion and health but if ur using it to curb anexity then tbsts not good

Heello

Date posted: 5y

Yes I think that too, but i dont know what thoughts makes me distressed that makes me do these compulsion or if ots only excitment

MJocd

Date posted: 5y

I'm not Christian but I am spiritual and so I understand on some level, I also deal with severe moral OCD related to porn. I gave up porn a year ago, I mean I am a girl so idk if that makes a difference but I was quite addicted to the feeling of watching porn and mastrubation, I felt that it was helping me and calming my anxieties but instead it was harming me in so many ways, spiritually especially. It's not hard to give up porn, porn is honestly nothing. You just need a strong enough reason why. Personally, as a female I worry about the females in porn. I worry about the behind the scenes, if all those girls are treated well or not. I worry for they're safety and well being and that is what completely made me stop viewing porn and I know for a fact I will never view it again. Once you stop, you're brain doesn't crave it anymore. I crave real love, I crave a husband who will love me and respect me and my body. I want marital sex now rather than before where porn made me believe I should just do whatever for a man if he asks me too. Find out why you want to stop, and let it be enough to get you through this okay. Much love xx

Heello

Date posted: 5y

Thanks for the reply, I might think abou this as well to stop

dpveritasgold

Date posted: 5y

I’d like to respond more fully to this, but I’m at work right now and unable to. But I would say to get help in two places ASAP. 1. Confess this to your pastor and seek biblical counseling. 2. Find an OCD trained therapist to help you recover from the OCD side of things. Take comfort in Romans 8:1 If you’re in Christ then God is not mad at you.

Heello

Date posted: 5y

I already confessed it a year ago along with the ocd thoughts to a pastor of my old church. Actually i am not in any church to be honest. Just read romans 8 1, but One thing that i dont understand is how can I cope this feeling being single and actually i am someone who never dated or have been in a relationship. Like I really have no lucky. And maybe the feeling that I still like it idk Talking to ocd specialist about this would be dificult for me. Actually i ve been delaying to see my doctor because I feel to much anxiety and keep thinking what should I say and actually have fear of saying.

johnny

Date posted: 5y

@Newstage Would it be helpful to write down the things that you want to say and then take them with you?

Heello

Date posted: 5y

@johnny Actually the frist months of treatment I write down What was going on with me, but since last time I started thinking so much, going deeply in thoughts and feeling bad and depressed a lot with so much thing that I couldnt even write much. Like a phrase or two. I feel i have so much to talk and I cant express it

Heello

Date posted: 5y

I want to reinforce that I want stop doing these things or coping, I dont want to go to hell and be condenmed because of this. These things makes me really depressed and hopeless...

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