Trying

@BigGyro09 Please start meds everyone I know even without ocd take them it’s so normal I swear. I heard this thing what ur not changing ur choosing and it stuck out to me that I’ve been choosing to be miserable by denying help cuz I can’t do it myself even tho I think I can

@Lola Yeah I completely agree. My psychiatrists are telling me the same thing. If I don't tell them then I'm just choosing the other option which is to suffer with anxiety when the solution is there. It's just so hard to do this though.

@BigGyro09 I started in fact I want to increase but rmr that’s 50% of it I need to start therapy i genuinely don’t know why I waited so long but I’m telling u it’s not a cold that just goes away it’s like ppl who have asthma there’s just somethings u HAVE to do to manage or it’s gna get worse ur not weak literally either ppl are physically in pain or mentally this is our battle and I promise u every time u think wtf is wrong just know I feel the same lol

@Lola Think of it like this it’s just a rule book u have to follow if u wanna win nothing comes easily someone else may struggle with eating or family issues urs is this and it can be helped if u accept the help everyone is dealing with something but they all have a chance to change it this is ur chance

@Lola That's definitely true. And I don't really know what they'll say or how they'll react when I do bring this up. My mother is aware that I go to therapy but she didn't respond positively to medication. I'm trying to have my psychiatrists talk with her more about how my treatment is going. That's another things, I'm sure we've all taken medication for something in our lives and I know they have as well but they get scared when it comes to side effects anyway. I don't blame them though, I do too. But I still want to try it because it's better than what I'm doing right now

@Lola I really do appreciate your words. A lot of it is very similar to what my therapists have been saying. I guess I just have to open up to it more. It's hard but I think I'm catastrophizing things in my head. Even when I acknowledge that, it doesn't make the anxiety go away, but at the same time, nothing will except going through with it. I know that if things go well, I'll feel pretty excited to get better after I've poured my heart out about it. But I'm just worried about the response not being so good. I will have plans about it if it doesn't go well but I'm also gonna feel really down about it. But regardless, I just have to try. I just don't know how I'll do it.

@BigGyro09 Don’t worry first off meds make life a bit more manageable as for therapy im also starting erp for the first time properly and am scared I won’t respond well either but remember if one thing doesn’t work try another. Its like working out if cardio doesn’t make u lose weight maybe eating will u just have to find your thing because trust me because its not as physical as sickness u dont feel the need to act on it. Even me I never think of helping myself until I get really bad but thats like someone going out in the cold with no jacket expecting not to get sick some things just have to be done to make sure they don’t get really bad.

@Lola How much of a difference has medication made for you? I don't know how to do ERP but I would definitely like to get started on it. However that may go. Yeah if one thing doesn't work respond to another. I guess I'm just so used to being down when things don't work out water than having one thing fail and trying something else that may work. I have a bad cycle of doing something again and again and hoping that it works in some of the instances when I do said things. They call that the definition of insanity ironically enough

@Lola I had a little bit of a headache so I took Advil with two 200mg gel pills and I feel so much better than I did before I took the Advil. That gave my kind of a boost in my confidence about the whole medication thing. My family does the same thing when it comes to headaches. We take that, and then we feel better. Advil counts as medication just as much as SSRIs do. I guess if they don't understand it, that's my simplest go to example for trying to talk to them about this. It really does give me confidence