- Username
- Abhi99
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Thanks to all of u....my days are going really bad...sharing feelings to u all and getting such supportive response makes really feel better...to know that I am not fighting with this alone makes u more comfortable and inspired...I hope one day all of us will be free form this devil
I feel that completely you just have to remind yourself that no one can change the past and ultimately you decide how you feel about yourself. When I struggle with the bad thoughts about myself and feel the guilt and shame I like to imagine if a friend or a loved one came to me with the same concerns and what I would tell them. It often times shows me that while I feel extreme guilt and shame it’s never as bad as I think it is. It helps to remove yourself and just focus on the thought for what it is a thought
Hey there, I have made some of the most soul crushing mistakes in my past that bring me constant reminders of guilt, anger, emptiness, and many other things that I can't even describe. I know it's incredibly difficult to live this way, and I'm so sorry you are going through it. One thing my psychologist told me that helped a little is that he told me to try my very hardest not to look at the moral idea of being good as a black and white situation. If you view others as all bad or all good, then you're more likely to just feel shitty about yourself. All people have a mix of both bad and good in them, but as humans we have the ability to reflect on things that we wished we had done differently to inform us what to do/not to do in the future. Unfortunately that mechanism comes to bite us in the behind sometimes. We are all both good and bad. It is what we choose to act on that we ultimately become, and that in itself will be forever changing. I'm not sure if this is an OCD thing or something else as I have multiple diagnoses. It's not easy to see good and bad on a spectrum, but trying really hard to do so has been making me be a bit easier on myself, which can do wonders for your mental illness. Self compassion is really key here. I hope this helps and that you are feeling better soon. Stay strong and best of luck!
But this pasts are real and that's what making me so mad and makes me so angry about my self it feels like I don't deserve any good thing in life...if I had that I would never make that mistakes
Mine are real too but I feel like you are a kind and forgiving person who can forgive others so you have to forgive yourself
Thank u for your kind reply It really makes me feel a lot better
People can change right?? I did terrible things..even last year. Probably even this year. Which would make me my fears. But I regret them so much,I generally just want to move on and be a better person, but I feel I don't deserve to..this isn't ocd making a little bad thing bad, these things were terrible. And I know it,, everybody would know it. I just want to love myself for who I am today, not my past. I chang everyday but I generally feel so much guilt and disgust. The ocd with intrusive thoughts that I wanna do it all again. Makes me feel I still am my fears...I hate it so much. This wasn't 1 mistake or 2..or even 3. It was so so so many disgusting, horrible,shameful mistakes. I did for years and years. And I mean 11+ years.
Can real event ocd, or ocd in general make you feel bad for something you did that was actually wrong? I keep thinking about things I’ve done in the past that are defiantly wrong and shitty things. But I’ve never really thought of them before. I knew they were terrible things, and I’ve not gone back since. Maybe 10+ years ago (when I was 19-21). I thought real event ocd was your brain taking things that are trivial and twisting them to make you seem bad. In these cases I’ve grown as a person l, I’m really not proud of myself and hope to never go back to that place. Is this ocd, or am I suddenly just feeling remorse for being a terrible person? I just feel the need to confess to my wife again, even though she knows most of it.
i’m ruminating on odd past mistakes i made and i feel so terrible and feel like i am going to be punished for them one way or another. it’s things from 6+ years ago to things that happened literally last year. i feel sick and feel like the nastiest person for my mistakes, my ocd has been latching onto my moral compass and attacking it like crazy :( idk what to do :(
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