There are my pasts which I am not proud of and make huge mistakes.......now after so long suddenly these memories are coming back to me.....getting a worse anxiety...and feeling shit about myself...I don't think so I can ever forgive my self It turns me to a bad person...I don't know what to do.....how to live anymore..Is this even normal in OCD....or it's not my OCD...I don't know how to correct my past..

Thanks to all of u....my days are going really bad...sharing feelings to u all and getting such supportive response makes really feel better...to know that I am not fighting with this alone makes u more comfortable and inspired...I hope one day all of us will be free form this devil

I feel that completely you just have to remind yourself that no one can change the past and ultimately you decide how you feel about yourself. When I struggle with the bad thoughts about myself and feel the guilt and shame I like to imagine if a friend or a loved one came to me with the same concerns and what I would tell them. It often times shows me that while I feel extreme guilt and shame it’s never as bad as I think it is. It helps to remove yourself and just focus on the thought for what it is a thought

Hey there, I have made some of the most soul crushing mistakes in my past that bring me constant reminders of guilt, anger, emptiness, and many other things that I can't even describe. I know it's incredibly difficult to live this way, and I'm so sorry you are going through it. One thing my psychologist told me that helped a little is that he told me to try my very hardest not to look at the moral idea of being good as a black and white situation. If you view others as all bad or all good, then you're more likely to just feel shitty about yourself. All people have a mix of both bad and good in them, but as humans we have the ability to reflect on things that we wished we had done differently to inform us what to do/not to do in the future. Unfortunately that mechanism comes to bite us in the behind sometimes. We are all both good and bad. It is what we choose to act on that we ultimately become, and that in itself will be forever changing. I'm not sure if this is an OCD thing or something else as I have multiple diagnoses. It's not easy to see good and bad on a spectrum, but trying really hard to do so has been making me be a bit easier on myself, which can do wonders for your mental illness. Self compassion is really key here. I hope this helps and that you are feeling better soon. Stay strong and best of luck!

But this pasts are real and that's what making me so mad and makes me so angry about my self it feels like I don't deserve any good thing in life...if I had that I would never make that mistakes

Thank u for your kind reply It really makes me feel a lot better