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- 5y
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Thanks to all of u....my days are going really bad...sharing feelings to u all and getting such supportive response makes really feel better...to know that I am not fighting with this alone makes u more comfortable and inspired...I hope one day all of us will be free form this devil
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I feel that completely you just have to remind yourself that no one can change the past and ultimately you decide how you feel about yourself. When I struggle with the bad thoughts about myself and feel the guilt and shame I like to imagine if a friend or a loved one came to me with the same concerns and what I would tell them. It often times shows me that while I feel extreme guilt and shame it’s never as bad as I think it is. It helps to remove yourself and just focus on the thought for what it is a thought
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Hey there, I have made some of the most soul crushing mistakes in my past that bring me constant reminders of guilt, anger, emptiness, and many other things that I can't even describe. I know it's incredibly difficult to live this way, and I'm so sorry you are going through it. One thing my psychologist told me that helped a little is that he told me to try my very hardest not to look at the moral idea of being good as a black and white situation. If you view others as all bad or all good, then you're more likely to just feel shitty about yourself. All people have a mix of both bad and good in them, but as humans we have the ability to reflect on things that we wished we had done differently to inform us what to do/not to do in the future. Unfortunately that mechanism comes to bite us in the behind sometimes. We are all both good and bad. It is what we choose to act on that we ultimately become, and that in itself will be forever changing. I'm not sure if this is an OCD thing or something else as I have multiple diagnoses. It's not easy to see good and bad on a spectrum, but trying really hard to do so has been making me be a bit easier on myself, which can do wonders for your mental illness. Self compassion is really key here. I hope this helps and that you are feeling better soon. Stay strong and best of luck!
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But this pasts are real and that's what making me so mad and makes me so angry about my self it feels like I don't deserve any good thing in life...if I had that I would never make that mistakes
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Mine are real too but I feel like you are a kind and forgiving person who can forgive others so you have to forgive yourself
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Thank u for your kind reply It really makes me feel a lot better
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- 23w
I have made multiple mistakes in my past that lead me to believe im a bad person. thinking about them often sends me into a panic attack. i cant help but feel i need to be punished. i hate this feeling, what should i do?
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- 18w
So, I know my capacity to get fixated on things. And it's normally something that's relatively remote but, my latest issue is really getting to me and I was wondering if people have any advice. I'm avoiding getting too into specifics, as I don't want this to get reassurance-y but, in essence.. I came to the realisation recently that people who I'd been "friends" (feels like the wrong term now) when I was younger were not very nice people, and normalized a lot of very unpleasant behaviour towards other members of the group. They really normalized it, sold themselves as figures of authority, as older and more responsible and grown-up than others, and looking back, they acted horribly. And coming to this realisation, that I'd been manipulated into just accepting their behaviour has just... broken me. My OCD has latched onto it and I can't stop feeling irreversibly tainted by it. I've talked to others about it, and they've reassured me, told me it's not a big deal and that I hold myself to too high a standard, but none of that sticks. I feel better for a bit, then think 'Maybe when you told them you were skewing it to make yourself look better' or 'Did you leave out a crucial detail'. I keep ruminating over and over, trying to remember exactly how everything played out, trying to figure out if I fed into the behaviour, if I did something bad myself (because y'know, I feel like I was accepting of it at the time, so what does it say about my own values?). I know I need to stop doing all this if I want to improve, but then some part of me keeps saying 'So, you're just going to let yourself off the hook then?' Normally, I can rationalize my own fears to some degree, assure myself something won't happen, but the realness of the situation, and the fact I only came to understand the reality of it because the thought had been bothering me means it feels so much more all-encompassing. I know confessing in itself is a compulsion, but I keep feeling that if I'm not I'm somehow concealing what I 'really am' from others around me, and any positive interactions are me deceiving them in some way. I feel like I can't enjoy anything in life right now, and a good part of me feels I should not enjoy it ever again. If anybody has any advice on it, I'm all ears. Or even hearing if you relate to these feelings, I might appreciate the solidarity at least.
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- 16w
Everyday I wake up, all my mind makes me think of is the stuff I’ve done in the past, like all day I’m in a constant cycle of judging who I used to be and it hurts so so much. I wish I never thought to do those things, I wish I had been more mature than how I was before, it’s really lowering my self worth and I don’t think I’ve ever felt this miserable before, like last summer was the worst because I was dealing with this shit, I about almost ended my life over it, and I thought it would get better, which it did, but it didn’t last but for a while. As soon as it became 2025 I was going through it again, having constant cycles of “I’m a good person” to “I’m the worst person imaginable” and I’m so sick of it because I just want to feel like the good person l like to imagine myself to be, but I can’t because of shit I did in the past that I obsess over. I’ve cried and screamed so much over it and it seems like it will never leave me.
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