- Date posted
- Yesterday
Anyone struggle with infection OCD? (TETANUS)
I have a genuine fear of contracting tetanus to the point where I sometimes don’t even want to work in the garden or touch soil. My immunity is still great from my last booster shot (I had my tetanus anti-toxoid antibodies tested a couple months back and they are well above the minimal requirement) however anytime I get a small scrape or cut I spend the next week or so genuinely waiting for the symptoms to kick in. Lock Jaw, Fever, and Death. I had the smallest cut on my foot from stepping on a light plug prong and it barely (literally barely) broke the skin. It didn’t even start bleeding until about 5 mins later. However I noticed my feet were dirty form wearing sandals and even tho I cleaned the tiny wound vigorously and washed my feet, I know feel like it’s just a matter of time until I’m in the hospital and then soon will be dead. I rationally can tell myself that I’m being silly but my animal brain is convinced I’m on a path to sickness and then an inevitable horrible death that will leave my family in peril…. This cycle happens anytime I get a cut or scrape. (2-3 times a year) I hope I’m not alone in this. It really sucks dealing with this obsession on top of my multitude of fears.