I’ve been living with this horrible illness officially for 11 of the 20 years I’ve been alive and I feel like the older I get the worse it gets and it’s killing me. I just want some relief I’m in so much pain. This illness has hurt myself, my fiends, my family, and has even caused the man I love who also has ocd to break up with me. I feel like I’m a lost cause and I hate it. I don’t know who I can trust anymore and I just feel so broken. HELP

That’s the thing that hurts the worst I e been on more medications then I can count and have seen multiple therapists and I’m supposed to start a new program in a week but I’m just terrified it’s not going to work because I don’t know if I can handle much more of this. I’ve lost so much trust in mental health care and to make matters worse I just got dumped over the phone by my boyfriend who I met at an ocd support group because he said I was too emotional for him so I just feel like I’m a lost cause and I hate it

I’m am so sorry... I don’t even know what to say... I am so incredibly sorry. It is really unfortunate that mental health care can’t always be trusted, I have heard that too many times. I really hope you can find the strength to continue. Maybe this new program will be that light at the end of the tunnel, maybe it will be what you’ve been looking for, but maybe it won’t. There is something that works, you just have to find it. And I know it hurts, but if your boyfriend had the audacity to dump you over the phone and say it’s because your too emotional, good riddance. Don’t dwell on it, he wasn’t right for you. I wish you the best. You will get through it!

Praying for u Sarah!

From what You’ve written I am guessing you aren’t attending therapy? Or on any meds? If you aren’t I would seriously encourage you to seek help from and OCD certified therapist. Also if your OCD is really bad you might want to see a psychiatrist about possible taking meds to help with the beginning of therapy. For me therapy helped but more than anything getting medication is what gave me my life back and I know that is not the case for everybody but that was my personal experience. Therapy, specifically ERP is the best long term treatment for OCD, so I would strongly encourage you to look into it and if it is unavailable or too expensive where you live, there is always other resources online and on this app. I wish you the best and good luck.