Bad Person OCD

Hi everyone, this is a sensitive topic and so I want to preface this: I am mentioning politics 2024 was my first election- I thought I did my research, but I am so upset to learn that I think I made the wrong decision. I am someone who values human rights- healthcare, food, housing, etc.. I feel so stupid, and I have people saying to cut people off who made similar decisions as me. I know my family members are not bad people- a combination of misinformation, deeply instilled beliefs, and lack of research and comfort in the familiar. I keep myself up at night and now try to educate myself. Am constantly worried about not making the right decision. A good friend of mine cut me off because of who I voted for even though she knew the amount of uncertainty I felt in my decision. We both valued the same things, it was just misinformation and different ideas on how to achieved it that made us different. How do I cope with this feeling that I am an awful person, and how do I not think people I love are awful people? I felt so guilty for voting for trump because my friend said I was a nazi etc even though we’ve been friends for years. EDIF: Since the election, I’ve made sure to carefully examine then costs and benefits of each policies and be more vocal about the causes I support

healing2023

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 20h

your ocd is going to exploit the fact you feel guilty for voting for trump, a person without ocd who feels guilty for voting for trump wouldn’t constantly beat themselves up and feel constant guilt about it to the level that someone with ocd feels. but being a human means making decisions that we might later regret, you have to keep going and living life, accepting that you now know better and that you’re human. i also assume you are very young, which is even more reason to forgive yourself. ocd wants you to constantly live in a state of guilt and fear, you don’t need to do what it tells you.

sophiamia04

Date posted: 10h

@healing2023 Thank you so much. This was very helpful and I really appreciate you taking the time to write out such a thoughtful response :))

Ashzz

Date posted: 20h

Im anxious about similar kind of things, often worried im a bad person or someone close to me is a bad person. It's so hard when ocd lands on things like this, cause on the one hand it's actually important to try to do right and do research etc, but on the other ocd makes it so hard to tell how much is enough and it causes so much unnecessary guilt. Im bad at dealing with these topics myself too, but i personally think being able to change is something that defines what kind of a person someone is way more than things they have done in the past. I think in your case you've already done a lot to be more informed and you'd make a different choice now, but ocd keeps telling you it's not enough. And what ocd says isn't true. Often the people who care the most feel the most guilt too, because they really care. And if I were that friend you mentioned and you explained the situation to me, i'd be your friend again

sophiamia04

Date posted: 20h

@Ashzz Thank you so much for the thoughtful reply, I really appreciate your willingness to share your own anxiety relayed to these topics

Boundaries

Date posted: 15h

You voted and that’s important. Trump is an idiot but his supporters aren’t. So you made a mistake? That’s ok. It’s not science. You can’t be perfect. You can be a good person and vote for Trump and a bad person and vote for Kamala. In the end you will probably be disappointed in any politician TBH. But his election is not your responsibility

sophiamia04

Date posted: 10h

@Boundaries Thank you. I really appreciate your reply, it’s very helpful!

nae nae

Date posted: 6w

Moral OCD, I think...

I've been watching a lot of mainly political videos recently. It started as trying to get a better understanding of everything going on in the world and how we got here in the first place, but one of the last videos I came across was about certain hateful groups of people that are becoming more active in recent years due to varying factors. The whole video made me so uncomfortable. Rightfully so, I think, even if it was informative. But now I can't stop thinking about how scary it is that humans can be sort of indoctrinated into such hateful mindsets and views... These issues have existed for a long time in the US, but recently, I've noticed that a lot of people are being more vocal about certain discriminatory views they hold and things. Maybe I'm overloading myself with too much information. I don't know. I'm just feeling really unsettled after that video. I can't imagine ever becoming someone like that, but it scares me to think about :(

Givenup

Date posted: 5w

Too many regrets

UPDATE: with my harm ocd hitting full swing... i find myself triggered by my pocd again... and i feel like a horrible person... i tried not to post... i tried to do what people told me... but right now i feel absolutely horrible... I genuinely feel so guilty and wanna exile myself from society... Youtubers are constantly getting accused of doing p3dophilic activity and inappropriately messaging women and minors and abusing others and its making me think my real events are as bad or as worse as them... Ive vented a lot to a lot of people in the PM's about my OCD... some of them younger (minors)... because I wanted reassurance from everyone and anyone... but this situation triggers me the most because I was venting about my 18+ HOCD situations... (the 18+ HOCD situations were about 18+ s*xual HOCD situations that triggered me immensely...) When I was 19, in an HOCD support group I was in, I vented to 2 minors in the PM's about my 18+ HOCD situations... The leader of the support group (that i vented to) was 17... I was 19 at the time... the other minor i vented to was younger (14-15)... the younger one told me she was uncomfortable when i vented to her in the PM's twice... The 14-15 year old said she was uncomfortable the first time and i tried to stop venting to her... after she said i was a bad person for supporting trump, i vented to her again because her saying i was a bad person triggered me... she said she was uncomfortable for the second time and then i blocked her... i kept asking the leader of the support group for reassurance for my 18+ HOCD situations for months because she kept giving me reassurance... i thought she was cute but didnt pursue her because of my age... i dont ever want to ever be a P or a MAP or a groomer in any way...

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 21d

Moral OCD, I think I’m panicking

I’m really, really spiraling, and I haven’t seen anyone talk about this. I think it might be something related to moral OCD. The topic of deportation is really getting to me, and I’m Latina myself. Anyway, I feel like people who are undocumented deserve to get caught and deported, and this is distressing me a lot. No matter how much I don’t want to agree with that, it feels like I do agree with it wholeheartedly. I think part of it is that if they weren’t undocumented, technically there wouldn’t be an issue, there wouldn’t be a problem, this wouldn’t be happening. I don’t know if this is stemming from anxiety or something else, but I feel like an awful person because I have people close to me who are undocumented, kind sweet loving people. I feel like I don’t know what to think. I see videos where people are mistreated, and it makes me so angry to see those power trips and the poor people who don’t deserve it. It just… I don’t know. I don’t know what to think. I don’t know. I don’t know if I’m in the middle of a panic attack right now because this feels really, really important. I don’t know if anyone else has struggled with this or with other moral themes, and I feel scared because this feels so real. I don’t feel scared, I feel worried. I know that the distressed contradicts the thought, but I’m telling you it does not feel like that matters right now, not one bit and maybe that’s because I’m stuck on a technicality maybe it’s because it’s stemming from anxiety, but I really need input right now :( I feel like a monster reading this back, plis help

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