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Sending hugs because that sounds so distressing! 💔 You’re right that we can never be 1000% sure - tests can be wrong! Who knows! Crazy things happen! Uncertainty is inherent in life, it just sucks that OCD makes it feel unbearable. My therapist would probably say “you gotta sit in the uncertainty and let it pass over you”. And everyday, make time to sit with the uncertainty, and then rebuke it. “No amount of analysis is enough. I can never know this with certainty. I am choosing to with the discomfort of uncertainty rather than torture myself trying to know for certain” Sitting with uncertainty SUCKS and sometimes I cry when I do my exercises with it, but over time it really helps teach you brain to not react so harshly to these thoughts. Remembering why you’re fighting OCD and why you’re exposing yourself to uncertainty on purpose helps give myself strength through feeling difficult emotions. Emotions are temporary sensations, even the distress and fear from OCD. Sit in them, look them in the eye, rebuke them, and then focus on being present.