how do I know ERP is working or that I'm doing it right.

I think when you can see your intrusive thoughts pass by with lesser and lesser anxiety. This is what I think progress would look like.

Oh alright. I reading a book by Jonathan Grayson, called Freedom from OCD. I have read selectively. So far the book is really good.

OCD is not curable. We have to live this for the rest of our lives. All we can do is to learn to manage it using therapies. Though i haven't made much progress in my OCD. And i know it's debilitating. But we gotta try.

No i am not comparing the type of OCDs, i was just trying to make a point that every attraction is not sexual. You get attracted just because it's attractive which is not sexual. Though i know this fact i still suffer from Gay OCD.

For me when I did it my anxiety slowly lessened. The thoughts definitely didn’t but my anxiety did, and that scared the shit outta me. But the more you do it the better you feel, and yes not having anxiety was probably the worst part of it all, because when I had anxiety it helped me know the thoughts weren’t true but once my anxiety stopped I started freaking out. That’s a normal part of recovery, because I went through it. And guess what? I’m better now so keep doing what you’re doing!

Also I just want to say that you can’t just stop ocd like you want to, it’s not possible. But with time it can slowly fade away, I understand it’s very hard but you can’t just stop it. That’s not how it works, trust me I wish that was how it is, but sadly it’s not. It might feel like nothings working but it will work you just have to keep pushing, and if you think nothing will work you really won’t get better you have to push. You have to try or you won’t get any better.

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There's also a tedx video by Jay Thadeshwar. It's a 17 min long video. Other than ERP he also tells other tools for living with OCD.

Well then that OCD monster of yours will win. The only thing that scares that monster is your hope, your efforts.

Listen to motivational songs and videos. Life has so much to offer than just OCD.

See the what happens with POCD is mind tends to put every kind of attraction in the bucket of sexual attraction. You being attracted to someone doesn't mean that you want that thing/ person sexually.

Trust me, i know this and still am suffering from Gay OCD.

First of all you are not a pedophile. You are scared that you might be. And that might be sucks everything. You have a mind with OCD. Hypersensitive to every weird thought.

You don't enjoy 'those' sexual fantasies. You are scared with the possibility of having them.