Was anyone's OCD triggered by a specific event? I keep replaying this one moment where I just suddenly stopped in my tracks at a comment. The day before this happened, I had a difficult conversation with my boyfriend -- it was on my mind, maybe I was already stressed which set off a 9-month long flare up? Before this, I was on top of the world with the best couple years of my life.
I experienced this. I always had anxiety growing up but I did something that I regret and it felt like it traumatized me and I haven’t been the same since :/ had very deep guilt and regret and started having confession compulsions. I felt like I wasn’t me anymore.
Yeah. I had an intrusive thought this year in early March that terrified me. I forgot about it and then in July I remembered the thought for some reason and it sent me down a 3 months long extremely dark spiral. Couldn’t sleep, eat, and by God’s grace I somehow made it through each day. Still struggling with the after effects of it but yeah this year has been tough lol 😢
Aw about the same time for me. I hate the feeling of wasting this year -- thought it would be the best one yet.
I'm also curious about your relationship with God if you're willing to share. I find it very difficult to not feel 'wronged' by Him when I am feeling down, and do not see a plan for myself.
@kroo Well I agree with you too!! This year was “supposed” to be my best one yet too. Started dating my boyfriend who is so kind and understanding, I’m graduating college, etc. Then one random day in July I felt like my life was completely over. To answer your question, my relationship with God was pretty lazy (on my part) prior to July. I was lazy in praying, reading the Bible, etc. When I began to really suffer during the obsessive/intrusive thoughts, I literally prayed daily, day and night, memorized verses, listened to worship music, everything I could. My biggest struggle was I couldn’t sleep. I thought I was going to go crazy. God eventually gave me my sleep back. I found that my only hope to survive was through Him, no matter how hard the trial was.
I don’t believe so. I was diagnosed very young. Maybe 4-5. It was not a common diagnosis then. I do believe that specific traumatic events have intensified it over the years.
So does your OCD come and go by the year? Or it gets triggered?
Also, sorry that message was so long. I’m sorry you feel wronged by Him when you’re down. I admit I have felt that way too. Especially recently I have kind of regressed a bit and was struggling with scary thoughts that have been leading to depression. But I know God is a kind God, no matter how confusing life may seem (and frustrating). So when I think about it, I just keep faith that He knows best and He’ll get me through this. The fact that I survived that horrific 3 months is proof to me that He can and will help and rescue.
I’ve been triggered so bad this week I’ve had bad anxiety and feel depression coming on. Last night I had a thought oh let’s plan it and I immediately thought why would I think that and started crying bad. I’ve had these thoughts for 7 months I really don’t know why I’m having these thoughts, if I knew I would work on it. Like people say has something happened in your life for you to have these thoughts and nothing has happened, it all started off from what if thoughts , like “what if I’m a psycho” because I saw this fb post saying introverts are more likely to become psychopaths and it all spiralled from there I started getting thoughts about harm towards others and myself. What do you think guys should I treat it like ocd or do you think there’s something seriously wrong with me.
I’m a teacher, and for the last two school breaks, my harm OCD spikes regarding my girlfriend. The first one was winter break (It came back after three years), and when I was recovering, it came back in the beginning of June. Just out of nowhere. Even though I know it’s OCD, it still scares the hell out of me and I spiral for weeks and weeks. Does anyone else have spikes and relapses when there are breaks in your routine?
Tbh I don’t really remember exactly what/when I saw or read that first triggered my potential ocd (not officially diagnosed yet), not sure if it was a thought that led to research or research that led to thought. Is this normal? And can ocd first be triggered by something you read or is it like you read something + getting a thought?
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