Hello ?? I’m new here. I’m a mother to a 7 year old boy that has not only been diagnosed with Autism Spectrum, Sensory Integration, ADHD but also OCD. He is afraid or germs, and he’s constantly asking me for reassurance with bad thoughts he is having. From his mind telling him he’s going to hurt me but he doesn’t want to, to telling me his mind is saying he likes boys but he thinks it’s nasty, to constantly repeating things that he did bad years ago that no longer matter even tho he has already told me. Also him saying things that I know didn’t happen but yet he says he’s not sure if it did or if it didn’t happen. To him brushing his teeth and counting. He can brush his teeth now and 2 minutes later I’ll ask him if he brushed his teeth and he will say did you me brush my teeth and if I say no he will say he doesn’t remember and he will go and brush again and again until I say yes I saw you. This is all so overwhelming I don’t know what else to do.

Please read this. I’ve had ocd pretty much a lot of my life but never knew what it was until my senior year of highschool. I’m 21 with 2 kids and i believe i’ve had pocd a little bit before my daughter was born (which was 8 months ago). It made me start looking at all kids differently and i hate it. But it really started triggering me about 3 months ago. I’ve been thinking if i’d intentionally touched or harmed my kids the wrong way, or any kids for that matter. This started giving me false memories (or at least hope they are). I’ve been having panic attacks, yelling at myself, punching walls, praying, and even thoughts of ending my own life. I grew up in a severe toxic household throughout my childhood and teenage life. I’ve never wished that on my kids since i became a dad. I wanna give them the life i never got. I look back my photos of my children and i feel like i’m a complete fraud of a dad. I cannot look at my kids or be around them a lot of times. I can’t hold my daughter right. I can’t change their diaper when they need it. Even my son came and was hugging on me the other night while i was watching tv and i acted like a stranger to him. I can very little do this stuff sometimes because it’s either i get relief or i push my thoughts as far back as i can. I get scared if i did something to not just my kids, but any other kids in the past. I have such a a great life and such a beautiful family. It was hard and stressful at first being young with a family but i couldn’t be more thankful at all for them. I’m just so lost and stressed right now that i just don’t know what to do anymore

Hey all, This is so strange to share this, and I have been judged by others and misdiagnosed many times. About a year ago I worked with an OCD therapist and it was really triggering. For me my thoughts are mainly about suicidal ocd and harm ocd centered around my children of all things. Fear that I could or would want to hurt them, then feeling so horrible that I believe I’m suicidal then I go back and forth on that. After reading a few of your posts, it makes me truly have a bit of hope that I can overcome this.

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