Can't stopped picking

Im 37 and recently divorced. The relationship was abusive and Ive been diagnosed PTSD. I have 3 kids that rely amd depend on me. I work full time. Ive experienced a ton of change and stress in a very short amount of time. I get obsessed about "a new life or career path" and it last all of 2 weeks. Then ill get another "bright idea", all of which I rarely follow through. My last one was going the military reserves for the benefits. I didnt enlist, but I was coming close. Now I know thats not the best idea. Joining is honorable but I shouldn't with my mental illness. Tried 15 years ago and got sent home on an unclassified discharge due to medical reasons. Anyways, Ive been picking. So bad that it's bloody scabs. Im trying to quit. I know its gross. My brain sees it as a reward system and a de-stressor. I need therapy but I lost insurance after the divorce. What can I do? How can I get better?

#Lexiriri

Date posted: 2d

For now look into picky pads. Not going to fix your OCD, but you can usually find them for relatively cheap online and it gives something to pick that is not your skin. And then give yourself some grace, OCD sucks and PTSD is hard (I also have PTSD) especially when you are first diagnosed with it. You need to learn what your triggers are, you have to learn what flashbacks are and learn to recognize when your having them, you have to learn how to pull yourself out of a flashback and back into the present day when they may be so intense your having a hard time remembering its 2025 and not the past, and on top of that your dealing with an extreme amount of hyper vigilance with a brain that already wouldn’t shut the fuck up in a first place, and if you manage to get to sleep despite the hyper vigilance then the damn nightmares are probably waking you up. Thats is ALOT and it sucks. So please give yourself some grace and cut yourself some slack! Make sure to eat, drink water, take a shower, and change into clean clothes if you haven’t today because I know I forget at least one of those 90% of the time when my PTSD is being a brat. And finally if no one else has told you today you’re try your best and that’s amazing and I believe in you because I do!

Anonymous

Date posted: 2d

Reading this made me feel understood for the first time in years. Thank you so much for taking time to reply. I'll start identifying my triggers. Ill start bringing myself back to the present when I'm in flashbacks. Again, thank you so much for the understanding and the solid advise. Much appreciated ❤️

#Lexiriri

Date posted: 2d

@Anonymous Of course and I know it’s expensive without insurance but as soon as your back on your feet financially and have health insurance I really encourage you to see a therapist and psychologist, both of mine have been absolutely invaluable in dealing with it.

Anakin145

Date posted: 2d

Hey, I am sorry about what your experiencing, your tough to have made it this far keep moving keep pressing forward

Anonymous

Date posted: 2d

Thank you

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