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Hi, April. I just saw your post and I completely understand how you feel, because my OCD has been the worst it’s ever been over the last 2-3 yrs. I am new here also and have not posted here until now, but your post caught my attention. You said that your OCD has morphed into something much worse. Can you share some of your symptoms and how they are manifesting with me? The reason I ask is because I want to see if any of your symptoms are similar to mine. I have a lot of the classic OCD symptoms, but I also have been having what is referred to as Health Anxiety, that has caused a lot of major problems with my sleep schedule and quality of sleep. And while I have always had problems with the quality of my sleep, I had never had the terrible health anxiety symptoms until I went through some very difficult times in my personal life and some of the worst things I have ever been through, over the last 5 years. And I do think that going through these hard times is what caused my OCD symptoms to ramp up and was also part of the reason that I developed the terrible health anxiety symptoms. But the good news is that I am doing much better than I was, but it is back and forth, as I tend to take a few steps forward and then if something triggers me off again, it sometimes feels like I have taken a few steps back. And I have to fight those few steps back forward again. Your post also caught my attention as we are in the same age bracket and i don’t have any kids (by choice). And my OCD had been the worst it has ever been, too, so I also wonder if your OCD ramping up could have been caused by possible upsetting events in your life, as well? And I say that, because I have noticed that the status of my emotional state has always had a direct influence on my OCD symptoms. I hope to learn more about you and how your OCD symptoms are currently affecting your life. I also hope my post has helped you in some way. Even if it is just in the knowledge that there are others out there who struggle with OCD and understand what you are going through. ❤️
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Hello, April! You’re welcome here ?
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Hello welcome !?
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Thank you for reaching out. I've explained in my brief bio how it's changed. I'll definitely explain more later...as there is more to it. I actually have a doctor's appointment in a half hour so I have to try to get out the door now. ? Let's chat later! I keep saying to myself that I WON'T FEEL THIS WAY FOREVER. It's a mantra...?? Peace to you!
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What has your ocd morphed into ?
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I’m going to check out your bio now. I hope your ASR’s appt goes well and look forward to chatting more with you later. Take care! ?
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Typo....Drs appt, lol.
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Hi April! Have you contacted the OCD center of Los Angeles? (Your bio said you’re in SoCal.) they could be a great resource for you! https://ocdla.com/
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