Re: last post and losing a friend somewhat

Ive been thinking a lot abt what happened still w last post i made on here ,and I also have had some stuff happen for an update. Summarizing my last post really briefly, I found out a friend had unadded me and softblocked me on everything whilst I was already very paranoid that my friends did not like me. When I asked about it I was told that it was because 'our communication styles clash/ different kind of autistics' and it wasnt my fault. When first discovering they had done this (unadded/softblocked me on everything suddenly) I tried to handle this well,but I got very very paranoid and frantic,and I asked them if it was ok to re-add me and I asked if they were upset w me bc they did not do this to anyone else in the server ,which i think bothered this person and I should not have done (i was added back for a little while but eventually unfriended again) it was the next day after all this happened I was told that this friend felt pressured when I came to them about this,and though I also apologized for this i cant stop thinking abt it. Lastly was the fact there was an incident a few weeks ago where this person felt I was derailing convos,again this was something I apologized for,but I cant stop thinking abt it and if it played a part. I feel really guilty and like I keep fucking up,and im still quite scared everyone is going to leave me.

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Scarlet5

Date posted: 22h

Maybe they are not true friends if they are unadding you. You deserve better friends.

💗Snoopy🌌

Date posted: 17h

Thank you,it was only the one friend and while I do get some people just dont vibe ans I cant make everyone like me,im still processing it because for awhile it really seemed like this person was fond of me.

worryywart

Date posted: 21h

i agree with the other commenter, sounds like they might not be the best of friends anyways, and if communication doesn’t work then there’s not much else you can do. in situations like these sometimes it might be for the best if someone is no longer a part of your life. of course it’s hard especially when there’s mutual friends involved but you’re not alone and i hope you’re able to make friends with people who genuinely value you. :)

💗Snoopy🌌

Date posted: 17h

Ty,im planning on trying to find more ways to keep in touch w the mutual friends (who i dont think are aware of this/.i think loke me,as far as it seems) outside of our groupchat server,unfortunately im bad at dms sometimes but i think I can work up to being better at it bc i do care abt these mutual friends a lot . Im probably going to try to put myself out there somewhere new so that I can have new friends as well.

worryywart

Date posted: 15h

@💗Snoopy🌌 i hope it works out for you, i’m sure your other friends will find ways to keep in touch too! you also always have a community here as well

💗Snoopy🌌

Date posted: 15h

@worryywart Ty! <3

💗Snoopy🌌

Date posted: Yesterday

I eventually left our server we share for a bit bc I got so overwhelmed (though i did inform this person i was likely going to do this to focus on studies,partially true,I didnt tell anyone else and I think that made things worse bc they got concerned, which makes me afraid they will leave me if they found out fully why) Sorry if this is weirdly phrased. I am in a weird stste of mind

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