Started crying a lot

Came back home, today was okay as when it came to work- but I felt super insecure today because out of impulse I trimmed my bangs and it ended up super short and because of the weather it made my hair super static, I look like a mess now, I barely paid attention to class since I kept looking at myself in the camera and old photos of me and just kept cringing or feeling jealous about my past looks compared to now I feel super gross. 😣💔 Kept my jacket on the whole day too because my outfit sucked and I felt super duper overstimulated and when I came back home I found my room to be all picked up but now I can't find certain stuff that I was going to use today, my closet broke, I need to still finish some stuff today and I still have classes tomorrow and I have to talk to people + OCD is now making me freak out over the thought of someone seeing me look at myself constantly in the camera and now thinks I'm a freak, or classmates saw me mumbling to myself and struggling to fix my out of control hair and now everyone thinks I'm even uglier and weird and tomorrow something bad is going to happen- intrusive thoughts are making me rewind to every conversation and text I've gone through, and my mind is saying that I'm done for and I feel like a failure to everyone and everything.. I'm just super overwhelmed right now and so upset this is not how I want things to go ughhh. 🥹💔

Anxiousgirly99

Date posted: 10h

Hey! Just know that your hair will grow back. I know it all seems overwhelming but you will get back to a point where you’re feeling at peace and happy with your hair/outfit. When I’m having a bad day I just say okay well today was pretty shit mentally, but tomorrow is going to be better because I’m in control of my day and I choose to not feel like this tomorrow. Hope you have a great rest of your day 🌸

VVbee

Date posted: 8h

Ah, thank you sm ! 💜 I honestly feel a bit better now- I'm still a bit frustrated about my hair but I tried evening it out a bit . It looks a bit wonky still but I think I'll just try to rock with it either way (I've dealt with bangs all my life too so this has happened before "^^ I mostly get worried that others will judge me or laugh for my outfits/hairstyle despite being told I in reality look fine . I just overthink a lot but that's also why I'm here on this app hah) and luckily it's almost the weekend so that makes me feel a bit more at ease, I'll try to make the most of it and have a calm day tomorrow. I also hope you're having a great day : )

Anxiousgirly99

Date posted: 6h

@VVbee You’ve got this :)

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 9h

Hey, I'm so sorry . That sounds too tough. It's just temporary!! Your hair will grow back! The OCD will want to attack you. Go do some things you enjoy! Do some self-care and give yourself a treat! You need that sometime

VVbee

Date posted: 8h

Thank you ! <3 I have decided to just let it be for now and just try to rock with what I have . OCD does unfortunately latch onto me even harder during school hours especially since I've dealt with bullies/judgmental people then and now I just don't feel as comfortable anymore . (Especially since I have to talk to others, see certain faces, and I start to panic if something will happen to me at any point or if someone will do something) the good thing is that I only have 2 years/a bit less left until it's all over finally and I don't have to go back . But for now I'll try to relax and do something fun even with OCD trying to pick on me : )💜

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 8h

@VVbee Yes!!!! Go do something fun and relax!!! You are worth it!!

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