For my fellow christians: This is reaaally beside the topic but i have to get it of my chest. Okay so like i really wanna be excited for jesus to retun but damn that makes me sooooo anxious. When i imagine it it makes me scared an di know u should be excited and so happy and u should be wanting it but as much as i force myself to feel thst all i feel is extreme anxiety and sometimes i habe a whole panic attack because of it snd i dont want to feel it it makes me feel like i will go to hell for it and i always wanna do better but i just cant and i dont even take the time to read the bible and if i loved jesus i would do that but im too lazy and focussed on otber things and idk it sll makes me so anxious

hocdgirlsummer

Date posted: 5y

And the fact tjay im aware of litteraly ignoring jesus makes me feel So bad thst i dont do something about it its just so freaking hard for me to give him like attention to the point where i make free Time for him. I talk to god a lot in my head but idk why but i feel like my bond with jesus is jusr gone ever since my 16th and ever since hocd. Idk but im getting all scared now like everything freaks me Out

Catlady

Date posted: 5y

My friend, you sound like me in so many ways. I’ve struggled with the thought of His return for a long time. I think you should bring this to God and tell Him what is on your heart. It may also help to figure out why you’re feeling this way. I hate even saying this, but I think part of why I struggle with it is because I have so many dreams that only pertain to this life and I want to them to come true but I worry they won’t. But the truth is that Jesus’ timing is perfect and my relationship with Him matters more than any of my dreams for this life no matter how much I desire them. If this is the same for you, I would recommend praying for a relationship with Jesus that goes deeper than the desire for any of your dreams to come true. I used to worry that I will be judged harshly when He returns. Maybe it meant that I had a sin in my life that I was being convicted of or maybe it was something else. But Jesus is not returning to punish His followers, but instead to reward them mercifully. I also don’t devote enough time to Bible reading. I would suggest trying to read in the morning when you wake up. Maybe set a reminder on your phone or leave a note by your bed if you have to. You’re not alone in this struggle. I myself need to do everything I just suggested you do.

hocdgirlsummer

Date posted: 5y

@Catlady thank you?? this is very comforting to hear. I relate to the dream part but sadly hocd striked me and i lost all my passions for my dreams so its a veeery empty feeling. Apart from losing all my happy feelings i lost my good bond with god. I talked to him all the tkme and actially felt his love and guidance. All of t is gone. I feel like ever since ocd ive become a worse person in so many ways. Ive started to care less about other people and about peoplenin this world and suddenly i dont feel the pain of bad things like war and i know its sounds crazy but i really dont know what it is but the feeling is just gone and i feel so numb and i really wanna feel it again i wanna feel things and be human but its just not happening and i totslly dont fele like myself. Thats why i feel like im extra sinning and like god left me and as if evil took over and its freaking me out im thinking so much about hell and i also do the compulsions where i csnt say omg or wwhenever i swear i say sorry in my head and idk it goes very deep. I find it so hard to find the good in me Thanks for commenting tho its really supporting :)

Catlady

Date posted: 5y

@hocdgirlsummer I’m glad you found it comforting. I can relate to a lot of what you just said too. I do feel like my bond with God had changed which is painful to even think about. I’ve dealt with a lot of emotional numbness too. But as long as we abide with God He will abide with us. He sent Jesus to die so that we could be with Him. The Bible is the story of God continually making a way to bring us back to Him. We have to remember that. You’re clearly worried about doing the right thing which means you have a healthy conscience and that is what God wants. It’s possible that the reason why you feel like you care less about other people is from your emotional numbness and that you really haven’t changed underneath it all.

hateocd123

Date posted: 5y

I've had a struggle similar to this except for me it's being scared for my loved ones who aren't saved. The thought of them not making it makes me so sad. I used to obsess over it a lot.

hocdgirlsummer

Date posted: 5y

Yeah sameni had this to when i was like 12 maybe i used to have this whooole list of hings i wanted to prevent my damily of getting like cancer or dying that day and rhen id name all those rhings and i would say please dont let this happen to: the whole list of family member names i printed In my brain and rhen id do that like 10 times a day.

Asherose

Date posted: 17w

Obsessing over my relationship and my beliefs

Recently, I have been obsessing big time over being the best girlfriend I can be and being the best Christian I can be at the same time. Its rough since I always have these lingering thoughts that I’m leading me and my boyfriend down a path of sin by being more passionate to the point of having lustful intrusive thoughts when with him sometimes despite the fact that we’re both not wanting to go past pretty passionate kissing. For some extra context here, I’ve grown up in a Christian household my whole life and over the past few years, have been getting progressively more interested in my faith after temporarily abandoning it. It’s been tricky knowing what’s okay and what’s not okay to do, especially since I don’t view it as a religion necessarily but more like me wanting to get to know my creator better, show how thankful I am to be here/have everyone who is in my life and show said thankfulness by being as devoted as possible while still being who I am to my core. As for my relationship, I have been with my bf for almost 6 months now and he’s made me the happiest girl in the world, constant hugs, kisses, sweet little gestures that make my heart melt, caring comfort, the purest of love in my opinion and I’m so blessed to have him as my partner. Unfortunately though, I’m always worrying about him and our future together and how this will work since he himself isn’t a Christian. A lot of people who aren’t Christian’s won’t understand this logic but my brain always goes to 2 places. 1 is possible disagreements we may have about how we want our lives to go since I don’t want to hold him back from what he truly desires. That though, may not always align with what I have in place for my life. 2, quite frankly the worst one, is worrying about my bf not going to a good place after he dies. Now, this is not because of him as a person (he’s the best, very kind, sweet, supportive and loyal) but rather, because of rejecting God from coming into his life, and that scares me more than anything. Basically, I was taught that going to heaven is accepting God into your life and having your sins forgiven, and if you don’t, your rejecting the one thing that can take away all your imperfections and make you whole once more, which leads you to not fully making the mark despite me practically begging on my knees that it wasn’t this way for the sake of others who may not view things the same as me (no disrespect towards others btw, I love and respect people no matter what the believe or do). Does that make me sound judgmental? Yea, it probably does, but I swear, I wish it wasn’t this way. Based on what I’ve come to understand as a believer in God and Jesus, it’s not that simple. Knowing that, there’s 2 things that I mainly worry about due to the context and concerns I have. I worry about being a bad influence and Christian as a whole because of how much I struggle with my mental health and how much I fall to my own imperfections. I try and I try but I never feel like I’m good enough, that I’m probably a lukewarm Christian (iykyk) and that even I won’t go to heaven because of my own doubts and mistakes. I pray constantly for reassurance and for peace so I can be with my bf and even by myself and not feel this overwhelming weight crushing my shoulders constantly. It’s scary, not knowing what to do, how to feel, if what I’m feeling is okay or not, etc. Idk if anyone else is in my shoes, whether they are worried about being a not good enough person, not strong enough in your beliefs, or even loving someone and worrying for them and their future to such an extreme extent. If there’s anyone out there who might have some advice to make the fear fade away, even if it’s a little bit, I would be forever grateful. Before I end this, I just want to say your are loved and appreciated for who you are and nothing will change that fact, even if you may not feel that way, I’ve been coming to accept that the more the years go by and I wish for everyone to know this. Anyways, God bless and hope everyone has an amazing day/night. ❤️

anonbeom

Date posted: 14w

End times (Christian Post)

how has the end times and discussions affected your anxiety? for me its been very constant and scary, any advice would be greatly appreciated. (no negative replies please)

anonbeom

Date posted: 14w

End times pt 2

guys im so scared right now and i know my ocd is making it worse. i keep reading things online about the antichrist and whatever and im so so so scared. i keep reading things and i feel so scared like im choosing a wrong side or something. but i know i love God and Jesus. im so worried im wrong and i have no idea how to overcome this one :( sorry if this scares anyone or anything but any help would be very appreciated

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