Pure o ocd

@Clurp i just don’t feel ready yet that’s the thing and i got diagnosed and then i tried taking therapy but got my insurance taken away and i can’t aford therapy so my only option is looking at nocd i really can’t explain how bad im doing this time and there’s moments that you don’t care and you start like doubting yourself and the way you’ve been all your life like you feel like you’ve been fake all your life to everyone and also now you just feel like your a weird person and that you have all your life and that you pretend and fake everything you can’t even think about things you want in the future because you feel unsure or like you’ve changed and you were just faking it

@Jaryelis.- Feeling like you’re faking it is something I think a lot of us go through! OCD is tricky and tries to trick you into not helping yourself. At least look into NOCD and see if it’s an option! If you aren’t ready that’s okay! Keep trying to confront it and maybe get tips from the free things that NOCD offers! Like Q&A and routines to help you calm down!! Just make sure when you are ready and maybe when you have your insurance again it’s ERP! If it’s talk therapy they just give reassurance and it exacerbates everything! You got this! We are here ◡̈

@Clurp thank you for that really appreciate it

@Clurp and one question did you go thru a phase like this as well and how long did it last ik everyone’s different but just wondering!

@Jaryelis.- Yes! I feel like when I got diagnosed and started realizing just how deep rooted OCD was in my life (and not everyone who doesn’t have OCD is going through this all the time like I am) it was very overwhelming. I was really happy to find NOCD and find comfort in my diagnosis instead of fear. There’s a lot of support on this app and feel free to vent, reach out, or anything!! You won’t always get immediate answers or the answers you were hoping to hear. But that’s the whole point! We are trying to rewire the way we think about things to be more practical. Also- a good tool I have found is to not take my OCD too seriously. Is it debilitating and sometimes really difficult to face? Yes. But is it super silly and makes no sense why I would be thinking that way? Also yes! You can confront it! You got this!!!

@Clurp tysm i really do try and i did realize that and im really trying but when your stuck so deep its so hard because i just realized that when i thought i was getting better i was just actually pretending to be okay which made everytime that it came back worse and its just so funny how my brain takes the dumbest things and turns it into something no joke like literally everything will give me ocd even the dumbest things ever even a chair if possible but thats the whole point of it ig and yeah thats a good way to see it as dumb but right now all i can do is wait to overcome this phase and start feeling like myself again be patient and strong it’s just horrible how it’s made me not feel nothing towards the people i love or my bf the only thing i can do to feel better is no give it the attention and let it sit there and be myself like i now i am and i will eventually come back to reality!

@analogueatom tysm for that and yeah very true i’m still trying to understand ocd because even if i read and it’s what im going thru it’s like i still think it’s something else that’s wrong when o got diagnosed with severe depression and ocd and everything is just so hard right now questioning everything from my past like how i’ve been or etc i just turned 19 and it’s very hard on me but i just stick with this phrase that my boyfriend told me when you feel stuck “If you think about the past, it gives you depression, and if you think about the future, it gives you anxiety. That’s why you should always focus on living in the present.”