Trying to be okay.

This is my first ever post on here, because honestly my anxiety over my health has gotten really bad. Ive had really irregular bowl movements as of thanksgiving and that’s about it no pain , no weight loss, no change in appetite, no blood , etc. My Brain is still trying to convince me that I have some horrible disease that’s going to kill me. I have an appointment with my doctor today at 9 but I’m do scared and anxious. I can’t fall asleep because I’m actually stressing out and my brain is telling me if I fall asleep I won’t wake back up. Honestly I’m struggling really bad and if anyone relates I’d love to hear how you calm yourself down or what makes you feel a little bit better because I haven’t been able to leave my house or panic attack free in about 4 days. Anything helps 💕

strawberryjell

Date posted: Yesterday

I used to have panic attacks some what from worrying I was having a heart attack cause I would get a lot of weird chest feelings. After a while it stops because u realize ur fine, I believe that’s how mine stopped. Moving to waking up I would ask my mom sometimes just randomly apart from the heart thing worrying if I would wake up and I have. It’s a worry u get but ur gonna wake up and ur gonna be ok <33

Alexxgrey59

Date posted: Yesterday

@strawberryjell omg thank you so much honestly I’ve always felt like alone I live in a small town and my family is very much anti therapy and feelings so I’ve struggled ALOT but it makes me feel a lot better and less alone thank you I so appreciate it 🥹🥹🥹🥹

strawberryjell

Date posted: Yesterday

@Alexxgrey59 You definitely are not alone!! My dad definitely isn’t with therapy and stuff as well so I can understand anti therapy because he said it never worked. My first therapist I felt didn’t help me with methods on my ocd but only just talked about the brain so I’ve had a rough time with therapy too but I’m trying to go back. It’s very hard dealing with ocd. Currently I’m dealing with religion and I don’t wanna do anything wrong to the lord and because of it I avoid playing my video games and watching movies and stuff because I feel I should apologize if I felt I did something wrong first

Alexxgrey59

Date posted: Yesterday

@strawberryjell Me too!!!!! I’m a Christian and that’s one of the main reasons why I struggle with the thought of death ALOT because I know I’m not doing things 100% correctly by the Bible so I can only assume that I wouldn’t be getting into heaven and I just freak myself out over it a lot. And i push my boyfriend away to fall into lust , or stay away from certain things. None of my non Christian’s friends understand and it sucks having to not go out with them because I’m afraid to fall to sin and feeling absolutely horrible the next day.

strawberryjell

Date posted: Yesterday

@Alexxgrey59 Yea I get that I wanted piercings and tattoos but I’m so confused what I want now because I don’t know a lot about the Bible. My ocd freaks me out too because I don’t wanna do wrong to god if I don’t pray over my drinks or foods and right now actually I am not drinking my drink because I feel I have to apologize to god for 2 things

Alexxgrey59

Date posted: Yesterday

@strawberryjell I have a piercing and I got it pre being saved and the tiny hole on my nose haunts me everyday 😅😅but i 100% get it !! I struggle with pleasing God as well I always think I’m not doing enough , and the only thing that helps is reading scriptures about forgiveness and how much he really does forgive even if we fall short that’s my only SAVING grace 😅

strawberryjell

Date posted: Yesterday

@Alexxgrey59 How old are u?

Alexxgrey59

Date posted: Yesterday

@strawberryjell 23!!

strawberryjell

Date posted: Yesterday

@Alexxgrey59 Oh wow I’m 17! How long have u been dealing with ocd?

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