Woke up out of a nap feeling terrible 20+ only

You said it best. That's the only way I can deal with it the best that I can. It does help in the long run but there are times where they linger for way too long.

@BigGyro09 mine have been especially bad lately as well. whenever i have intrusive thoughts that last for a while or keep coming up frequently, i like to take a walk or listen to some music and clean, just focus on something else. i notice if im busy i don’t have as much time to focus on the thoughts. just acknowledge that they’re happening but tell yourself “oh, there’s ocd again, but i need to do xyz right now”

@worryywart Being busy definitely helps. Or just being out of the house, but it's also very cold and I don't exactly wanna be out in the extreme cold to take a walk every day. My intrusive thoughts have been mainly sexual and POCD related. The sexual shame is really high and it hasn't really gone away. But yeah, in the long run that does help. Just focusing on something else and not thinking about it too hard.

@BigGyro09 that’s fair, i absolutely hate the cold and unfortunately the weather in the midwest is super inconsistent. thankfully no snow yet but last year we had a pretty bad storm i’m sorry to hear that :( i’ve had intrusive thoughts related to taboo themes since i was young so ik how you feel. it used to be harm ocd but now it’s a lot of the same things as yours and it’s even worse when it attacks someone i love. it’s a lot about identifying the root of where the shame comes from and recognizing that they don’t mean anything about you as a person, in fact it means the opposite because it’s something you so obviously don’t want or enjoy. it’s tough but you’ll definitely get through it!

@worryywart No matter how cold it gets where I'm at, there's no snow. And when it did snow, it was when the winter was basically over. I'm sorry you've been dealing with this since you were little. That must have been so difficult. Sometimes I think that I have had intrusive thoughts at certain points as a kid or did "compulsions" in my head so that things don't happen, like a thought getting stuck in my head. I'm mainly fixated on the things I've seen in adult content, like the ai stuff. I'm just trying not to think about it, that's all. That's all I can really do.

@BigGyro09 i wish we got no snow where i am, it’s the plains so when it does snow it just sits and freezes over🙃 i remember it being really confusing and scary when i was young but somehow i managed it better than i do now, i was able to just ignore the thoughts back then more. i definitely did the same as a kid, it’s sort of weird how ocd can come up when you’re young. i remember being irrationally worried about stepping on a crack and would always feel bad when i did and try to correct it. i did alot of counting to 5 back then too. what you said definitely sounds like one of those early ocd tendencies, i know it’s possible for it to show up in small ways like that when you’re really young. it seems hard but you’re doing good just recognizing the solution to what’s bothering you, all you can really do is move on from it. if it’s really bothering you i’m always here to talk ε( っ˘ ³˘ )っ♡

@worryywart It always seems like other locations gets ton of snow and my place doesn't. I miss the snow that I had when I was a kid. This was like close 12 years ago or so. It just isn't the same anymore. I remember walking home one day and had it in my mind that I shouldn't step on any cracks because that would be bad but I knew it wasn't really bad but kept on avoiding cracks anyway. It's weird how it all works. I can't imagine how hard it is for kids to be dealing with something as debilitating as OCD. This just gives me a lot of shame because it's something I willingly watched and looked for and knew I would hate it but I also knew it with be very attractive to see. It was just wrong. At first I thought it wasn't bad because the celebrity I'm looking up is already sexual with how they present themselves, but I've also seen this with the opposite kind of people. I told myself in my head it's not really them and it's animated but I still feel really terrible about it. I did this back then when I was a teenager and didn't feel bad about it at all but now I do. I know it's normal to have celebrity crushes and attractions and fantasies with them, but I guess the general shame combined with them being real life people makes me feel absolutely terrible about it. I've also had thoughts on my mind that ai adult content isn't bad if it has fictional adult characters only. I still kind of think that but I think the opposite because of how bad AI can be in general. I don't know, I'm mixed with AI's place in the world but there definitely are very very bad things that can come from it even in the hands of bad people. I just feel like I'm part of that problem because I watched AI content in the past with and without celebrities. Sometimes I think in private there's nothing wrong with it but the publicly of it and the fact that anyone can see it is very very bad. I definitely agree with the latter but I bounce back and forth with the former. I just hate thinking about it. All I know is that even when I watched it, it really disturbed me despite porn escalation definitely playing a role in it all. I remember purposefully watching more extreme things just because the usual was boring but felt very awful afterwards. I'm sorry. I know this is a lot.