Anyone?

I almost feel guilt for being on this app. Like, everyone here is struggling and this is just my big excuse for the human I am? I have ocd but that doesn't mean I can't ALSO be what I fear? Am I just living a lie? It also feels like when people say "intrusive" thoughts, it proves I'm just lying because the thoughts don't feel intrusive. They feel more terrifying and dark, not like they're randomly jumping at me and disturbing me. It feels more like I'm constantly questioning myself and one specific question rather than being disturbed by a random thought that popped into my head?

nottodaybrain

Date posted: 10h

You questioning yourself is the part of yourself that is truly you. The dark and terrifying thoughts are the randomness that come out of nowhere. You telling me that you question yourself makes me automatically believe that you know you wouldn’t do/act upon those thoughts, your much better than that and your much stronger than you think. Never forget that. And please never feel guilty for being on this app.

Anonymous

Date posted: 10h

this truly made my evening you have no idea man thank you

Anonymous

Date posted: 10h

I also struggle with giving too much weight to my “intrusive” thoughts. A lot of them do come from somewhere and aren’t random, but they are still disturbing. I’ve tried leaning into the uncertainty but that can escalate my anxiety a ton. I try to remember that even though that aren’t random, I don’t need to listen. Still working on that though.

Anonymous

Date posted: 10h

yeah! I feel like it stemmed from an intrusive thought and became more obsession around that stem and the why. since then I've been automatically questioning my body and brain for any reaction or feeling and its become ingrained almost. at least that's how I see it

Jrp1013

Date posted: 10h

@Anonymous THIS^ Ive been struggling with harm ocd and some of my thoughts are self generated but they cause great distress. Its taken me a long time to realize that it still doesnt need to mean anything. Not to reassure, but the fact it makes us uncomfortable, makes it intrusive.

Anonymous

Date posted: 10h

@Jrp1013 yeah! I've gotten to a great point where I know deep down this isn't true(I was very in that cycle a few weeks ago), but my main triggers is seeing anything to do with the obsession and instantly checking what I feel and think in that moment. So obviously that doesn't feel like the stereotype of an intrusive thought but i suppose it is! thank you :)

Jrp1013

Date posted: 10h

@Anonymous Anytime! There have been numerous specialists that have said if the thoughts make you uncomfortable even if self generated or whatever, they are still considered intrusive. You dont want to be having them even if you purposefully think them!

Anonymous

Date posted: 10h

@Jrp1013 oh awesome to know :)I feel like intrusive thoughts are often defined as having no substance but when you're in a spiral and it's all you're thinking of 24/7 it becomes a pretty solid part of your day to day!

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